it been so long since i last chat till am...
the feeling is cool (:

mixed feeling.. i feel so different talking to differen people.. just i don't know which is more like me. everyone do express differently and i myself reply them differently to match the conversation too.. i guess..

its 5am in the morning.... i will have to wake up in an hour time again.. i do this for 2 days n ... i think i have changed my slping time to evening instead or nite.. hahas cool uh?

i learn something or rather i realised something new today (: its........ hmmm hahahs i dntnoe how to say it bt i'm cool to know new ppl =)

good nite deer pet, idiot Cp.

to ongamanda.. slp well.. n i hope u did enjoy ur nite today.. XoXo..

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我想。。

我真的很想。。

imiss..

im missing....

im tired..



im really tired le...

good nite (:


晚安（：



我的明天会好吗？

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thankyou is what I want to say to ppl ard me..
Things happen to me randomly and I seems to have tis hardcore bad atitude. I'm not like tat in the past.. I'm angry with myself too.. But Im used to what I am now. I feel irritated n pissed Easily when things r not done my way. I Noe this is not the right way to do things.. Bt how? I dnt feel cool to do things not in my way now..
Sigh.. I'm thinking hard now... I think I need some wake up call le..

Going off le~~ camp for 1 week at jbac.. Misses to my frens...:)

there's something in me recently that i still couldn't understand. having a different family background or lifestyle really portrait so much differences in oneself? it is not easy to understand or intrude into another unfamiliar world just like that. i'm thinking how hard more and how sincere i need to put in to get through that barrier. trying to understand someone isn't easy after all.

how much time is needed to transform two unfamiliar strangers into someone who can share everything under the sun? i know it's not a day or two thingy. but i'm trying and i believe there's a way out to get it perfect (:

patient and trust have to be there. agree? i know adopting a new lifestyle is not going to be done by just with that snapped of our fingers. again, trust and belief will change everything. i'm quite particular about keeping up our own personality and habits. this shouldn't be changed just because someone don't does it.

i definitely agree to this phrase " action speak louder than words" yup its one of my weakness still. sometimes you might want to know what is right before you do anything that makes you look retarded.

chill pals.. recently friends are facing r.s problems.. this hot problem will never come to an end i'm sure.. im tired too.. lets turn in now and throw everything behind for a moment ba. (:

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say what you want to say..

too many things to be said. where to start? & when to end?

well..if i can read people's mind, it will be awesome.

sometimes i just wish i could read people's mind. i want to know what and how they think. i hate to assume, i hate to make guesses. i'm getting lazier and lazier. wanting something already requires lots of energy and brain storming. its tiring. so can all these be thrown aside and simply let me read people's mind just like that?

i kind of find myself not being very sociable anymore. i'm getting tired of answering people's questioning and i just want to stay silent. i'm not trying to act cool or being anti-social. i just don't feel comfortable to answer or talk much now. maybe i'm numb with having lots of thought in me or i guess i have been self answering my questions i'm in doubt with all these while. am i emoing now? or im just feeling bored and thoughts are developing in me again? hmmm... this sounds like im a weirdo uh?i don't wish im one though. i'm looking forward to have a planned future and of cause my everyday is spend equally fruitful and calm. i think management is one very important thing we need to have to build up that "future" we want.


i just want a simple life. do what i want to do.. say what i have to say, be what i want to be.
am i undergoing a change in life?

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say what you want to say (:

say... if things are to be hidden all the time, you wouldn't know what's right & what's wrong... true? Say... if you're tired .. you wouldn't want to keep it silent anymore. can? Say... if you're given a try.. should just give that try. iss't ok? Say.. if you're confused .. will everything be okay? Say...... if everything is just an illusion... when will everything be over?

so i say.. i'm numb and goner.. will there be a restart button?
so gonna get used to it when im treated differently..
that the reason why i see them differently too (:

just wanna be myself.
take it or leave it..

ilove incantoCharms~ itbringsmetosomewhere(:

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someone who i'll say iloveyou.
when it comes to serious things i will be the one to be count on. i'm always the one to be there for you. someone who you can play with, joke with and also laughs at me when i do silly acts. Someone who can hear you out. always stand by your side. Someone who give you the fullest trust. surprise you when you don't even know when i'm going to appear. make it the most unforgetable moment that you will never forget.when you are tired, im always there to be your pillar. when you have your cravings, i will get it for you as soon as possible. never let you feel hungry or in pain. i want you to be the happiest someone and never feel neglected. i just want to dote you all i can and loveyou like nobody else do.

YangZheng Primary school.



camping with kids had somehow change my idea of disliking kids.

not that i hate kids. just don't have this interaction with them. until recently... camping with the kids change my thinking toward them.

kids are still very hyper, questions are never ending... naughty is common.. playful is definitely... all this are out of control until you really understand them. Slowly you will know how to deal with their behaviours. at times their questions are just too many too many... you wont even know how to answer them. laughs*
i can only keep quiet. let them get no answer and they will stop.


another thing i learnt...

in order to get their attention is to keep quiet and hands up. count down.. all the way until they get wat u want them to do. it take times... really being patient is very important. however, some kids need to be firm and fierce so they wont climb up ur head. fee bad to shout at them. but i just need their attention. (: i noe u all are good kids. indeed ur are all good kids. just a little too hyper and curious abt things =)



lastly.... i simply love the attention they gave me. you will feel satisfied when they call u. when they cant bear to leave you.. when they look for u and ask you things. i know it can be irritating when they keep asking you. but when u see them smile at you asking why why why... u just wont feel angry but answer what they want to know. (:

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