have been so restless recently..

slp n slp.

tired easily.

help.......
i just woke up less den 2 hours.. now i'm goin bed again. omg.

tml another 4hours break.. i think i will go home again? omg.. this is shit timetable. sighh.

good nites, updates soon.. i'm too tired n busy n lazy to blog recently. sigh. ciaoo.

the other side of me.

why do we have to let our mind run wild? things are so out of control when we think of things that are so emotional.

sigh... if only we can have a penny of everyone's mind..... we will lessen a lot of misunderstanding and also lots of unhappiness. never will i have a peace and organised mind... things are getting more and more complicated.

life can be very tedious at times. what should we do, in order to have a balance lifestyle.
keeping oneself preoccupied issit the best way to stop our mind from running wild? tired of having many thoughts, many question marks and many uncertain enquiries. how i wish i can get my brain washed and start all over again.

my favourite hang out after work.
sometimes i just want to sit and stone. I've found the best location to let myself stare into the space and enjoy the cooling breeze. it is no other than the river side point at Clarke Quay. many a times, after i end work at 11pm, i will walked to the steps along the river side. soon I'm used to sitting there and take a short break. i simply love to chill out with a drink and look at the scenery. u will see many people gathered along the riverside to chit chat or even have the same thinking as me. just wanna sit and not think of anything. its really an ideal place to have some personal space.




still i managed to catch the last train back home :) home sweet home though its already 12 plus early in e morning... had a refreshing bath before i switched on my lappy to entertain myself awhile.. :) this has slowly become my daily routine.


had fun in A971cafe. ;D
i paid 2bucks for this drink. its supposed to be ice kacang.... i'm craving for one with RED BEANS. so seah our bartender say he can make me one... i ask him where can he get me REDBEANS!!! he said he has his way... so well since we are so bored.. and i'm craving for one too... i agree to pay 2bucks for that ice kacang. i key into the system ice kacang 1.50++ so total i paid $2. hahas

i bet he couldn't find me red bean... Never did i know. he go into the kitchen to get me EDAMAME peas!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!..... shit him by replacing the red beans as edamame! goshh... well.. i was thinking this ice kacang will turn out to be a shit one. HOWEVER... after a few mins, he bring out his art piece!

tadah!......


don't you think its like a 5star ice kacang! omg... he took out his lychee martini ganish and some cutted cherries and oranges to replace all those ice kacang ingredients. HAHAS those colour are syrups. its nice though... he makes it taste like some mocktail. =D
although the edamame doesn't suit to be in ice kacang.... i still finished it all up. IT REALLY a one and only A971 ice kacang. HAHAHAHS!

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its a long story.. but after i read till the end... i'm touched by his doing. and his past... can i be that brave too?
i wish to be the intrepid man too :)

女孩你会哭吗,男孩你会这样做吗？


女孩给男孩发了条短消息：如果家里穷困潦倒到只有一碗稀饭面对着我们两人，你会把稀饭里的米给我吃吗？
男孩回消息：这还用说吗？但是我认为一个真正爱那个女孩的男孩，就不应该让自己心爱的女人过如此生活。
女孩回消息：可有一个人的回答是这样！他说，不！我会把整碗的米连同稀粥都给她喝。这短短的对话会不会感动所有

女人我不知道，可我却被深深打动。
男孩回消息：那么连这一碗稀粥也没有，那个男人会怎么做呢？！或者有没有想到那一碗稀饭女孩吃了是不是还肚子饿

呢？！
女孩认为，男孩应该像那个男孩那样回答：不！我会把米和稀粥都给你喝！才是真正完美，标准，唯一的答案。
因为男孩没有按女孩的意思回答好这个问题，女孩和男孩背对背睡了一夜，男孩几次想拥她入睡都被女孩拒绝。
上天有时总是有些不尽人意。
后来女孩和男孩走到一起的时候，由于种种原因，他们真的遇上了类似于只有一碗稀饭喝的日子。
那天，男孩悄悄地给女孩留个言：亲爱的，我吃过了，桌上给你留了碗稀饭，你把它喝完。
女孩喝完那晚稀饭，小憩一会的时候。男孩从外面回来，给女孩带回来她喜欢吃的羊肉串，水果，奶茶。
男孩对女孩说，他找了份临时工作，刚挣的钱，老板答应先付一部分工资。说完还拿出口袋的钱在女孩面前晃了晃。
“亲爱的慢慢吃！我已经在外面吃过了。”说完还做了个调皮的鬼脸。
在最困难的那段日子，女孩依旧快乐的幸福着，男孩倒好像由于工作劳累，身体有些不适。
后来，男孩有了工作，女孩和男孩对他们未来的幸福充满美丽的憧憬。
女孩喜欢看电视，看到电视中报道多年前在一场大地震中，一位母亲和孩子被压在废墟下，母亲的奶水被孩子吃尽时，

母亲咬开了自己手上的血管，用自己的鲜血喂孩子，数天后，人们终于扒开废墟下的母子，母亲已经血流殆尽离开了人

世，嘴角的粘着母亲鲜血的孩子带着天真的笑容，红嘟嘟的鲜艳小脸蛋获得了新生。
女孩问男孩，如果我们俩被压在废墟下，你会像那位母亲样用你的血液使我活下来吗？
男孩对女孩的言语间竟有些激动。他对女孩说不要老是有这样那样的怪念头好吗？你是我的女人，我会尽我所能的让我

的女人幸福，在任何你的生命和安全受到威胁的时候，我会不顾一切的保护好你。你是我的最爱，我也不允许你把种种不好的推测用到你的身上，亲爱的。
周末，一个阳光明媚的上午，男孩挽着女孩的手，兴冲冲地逛了一个上午，买了好多女孩喜欢吃的零食和她喜欢的衣服

走在回家的路上。
两个幸福的小人儿，再穿过一个路口，就能到达他们共同构筑的爱的小巢——他们幸福的小天堂。
男孩一手挽着女孩，一手拎着买来的东西，男孩在前，女孩在后，两人走在斑马线上，就要穿过马路了，突然一辆右转

弯车辆，直直地向离男孩一步之遥的后面的女孩疾速驶来，眨眼的功夫，汽车就要撞到女孩。
“砰！”的一声闷响后紧跟着汽车紧急刹车的声音。
一切来得那么突然，被撞者轻飘飘的飞向两米开外。路面上是一片刺眼的鲜血的红。
“不！不要！”由于惊吓刚刚回过神来的女孩，歇斯底里地凄惨叫声撞击着每个围观者的耳膜。
女孩明白，汽车本来是撞向她的，在常人来不及反应的一刹那间的零点几秒里，男孩却惊奇地把她推开了，自己倒在血

泊里。女孩哭喊着扑到男孩身边，男孩浑身是血，女孩大声地呼唤着男孩名字，围观者说没用了，已经试过男孩没有呼吸了。
女孩不相信，继续呼唤着男孩的名字，男孩竟然奇迹般的睁开了眼睛，看了女孩一眼，带着安详地微笑，永远闭上了眼

睛。女孩明白，男孩在生命的最尽头还在苦苦挣扎，拼尽最后一丝气力看到自己的亲爱的小女人安然无恙了，才放心地闭上

眼睛。
那是个多雨的季节，到处充满了潮湿，雨水把天地连成雾蒙蒙一片。
两个人构筑的爱情小巢，现在只剩下女孩一个人，女孩浮想起以前两人在一起的点点滴滴。
女孩后悔那次不该因为男孩没有按自己的意思回答她问题，背对着他睡了一夜，后悔男孩几次欲拥她入睡，都被她拒

绝。她现在好想紧紧的拥着男孩，把那一夜的背对背补回来，可是再也无法也不可能补回来。
女孩习惯了逛马路时，身边有一个人紧紧的握住她的手，不用担心那些川流不息的汽车。男孩总是自己走在有汽车的一

方让她走在远离汽车的另一边。女孩好想再抓住那种安全感，可是怎么抓也抓不住。
女孩睡觉前，习惯了，有人给她唱着歌讲着故事入睡，现在再也没有人为她唱歌讲故事，她总是难以入睡。
女孩睡觉时，喜欢踹被子，男孩总是在每一次她踹掉被子时及时的醒来给她重新盖好。现在那个人再也不能哪怕为她盖

一次被子。
女孩喜欢吃零食，男孩每次从外面回到家里总能给她个小谗猫带来惊喜，安慰她的小肚肚，现在她的小肚肚多少天再也

没有人安慰。
女孩喜欢吃瓜子，喜欢吃板栗，喜欢吃橘子，却不喜欢剥皮儿，女孩每次畅快淋漓的大吃特吃完瓜子，板栗，橘子后，

男孩的面前总是堆起一堆果皮山，现在由于剥皮吃那些东西太费劲，她好久没敢碰那些想吃不能吃的好东西。
女孩现在有太多的不习惯，她只能学着慢慢的把不习惯变成习惯。
女孩整理遗物时发现了一个献血证，上面写着男孩的名字。奇怪的是她从来不知道，男孩在一个月连续献了三次血，上

面献血的日期更让她震惊，她清楚地记得，永远也忘不了那段他们最艰苦的日子。她明白了那段日子男孩的身体为何那

么虚弱，明白了男孩“预付的工资”的含义，明白了男孩是用偷偷献血的换来钱给她买来她喜欢吃的东西。
女孩继续整理遗物时，发现了一份报纸，意外地发现那场大地震时，那位伟大的母亲就是男孩的母亲，那个幸运获得生

命的孩子就是男孩，而男孩又把这份幸运给了她。
女孩泪水涟涟。

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pics...
coming up soon..

stay tune..
i cannot wait to have breakfast with my family tml morning! its a long time since we can go together as a family for breakfast! i'm looking forward!!!! hee... daddy n mummy are having their 1month break. if only now is my school holidays... i will wan to bring them oversea la... sighhhh
hope they can make use of this 1month to rest well... and have more family dinner :)

i will do my part.. i'm going to leave one of my weekends free from work... maybe 1st week of nov. i wanna accompany them to malaysia.. or anywhere they wanna go.. i think taiwan trip is not possible le. =(.... nvm.. as long as its going as a family... i will still enjoy! HAHAS

hungry... wants to eat all kind of delicious breakfast.... HAHAS... drooling...*

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12-10-09(MONDAY)
its supposed to be a surprise ended up...... shilin that girl knew everything was coming up. aiyehh... HAHAs
although its kind of last minute that we decided to appear in front of that girl, we managed to let her tears HAHAS! not because she is sad but..... she was too touched by our doing and surprises. HEE.... right right?? hope you did had a memorable 20Th birthday :)

before we surprise shilin...
kaisin and me was walking around town and marina square. looking for someone's favourite roses....

while waiting..... kaisin and me were camwhoring with the roses =D

YES finally! its time to light up the candle and surprise shilin!..... the most funniest part was.... before we can walk out to surprise her, she already sat on the bench with beat waiting for us -.-! sighhh... she surprised me instead lor HAHAS

snap snap... SMILE :) many picturessss.....
as u can see, we are so anxious to see the album beat made for shilin. like a nice lor.... hahahas beat! xin ku ni le! congrat! u did it! :)
we cutted the cake that lizi brought to surprise shilin as well. nice nice..yummy! i love cakes! i love sweet dessert. =P

see.. we haven't camwhore for quite sometime.. so that nite, we spent most of our time camwhoring. hee saw those LV bags i'm carrying? like wth lor! beat has one... SHILIN HAS one TOO! like tat lor.... bt i manged to cope them. saw the last pic? i own them for that 3mins. HEHEEE =x

14-10-09
its a Wednesday!
i'm working... and nice jiat xing and felicia came down to visit me ;)
wed is ladies nite, and A971 do have some promotion for ladies on wed. :) jiat xing and felicia got themselves Irish strawberry. i think its nice and sweet. serene came down later to wait for me. HAHAS she do have motive de! she wants me to accompany her to ZOUK! heee

she ordered a lychee martini and my bar tender, Seah treated her a grass hopper. she likes it though ;D





finally i end my work. phew.... rest awhile before we aparted with jiat xing and felicia. yi wen came. and the 3 of us cab down to ZOUK and there goes....... our Night .... long long story in zouk. yeap... i'm too lazy to type it in details. but sad to say... i wasn't in the mood to club. tired? and the music was totally out of place. so sick of trans music. -.-

right now i'm super moodless!

1) school timetable... makes me feel so stranger to be back to school days after 8 months. sighh... most of my classmates are separated. Omg...

2) working schedule... is killling me... when i see the notes and schedules i noted in my hp... i can faint. feel so tied up. bt if i don't work... i will die too. uhhh =(

3) Idiot Fuji lappy! ARGGG..... damn pissed! right now its giving me a BIG problem!!! damn it. sch going to reopen and dumb lappy go black out! freakk! just brought it 2 months ago and its full of problemsssss argggg.... i hate the feeling to travel all the way to Henderson road and service it DEN..... go back again to collect it. RAHHH! another thing i'm vex about.... if its sent for servicing, my data will be formatted?? uhhhh pls DON'T... i don't want my data to be washed off. =( sad u know. sigh

4) i see myself coming to the end of year 3... i feel stress as well. gonna cracked my brain so hard and think where i should go... uhhhh sadd... like really SAD. tell me what i should do pls. sigh..

5) i see my school timetable and my driving lesson and my working schedule clashed.. i feel so don't know what to do. go sch? go drive? or put in my schedule for work. HUH..??? how arh?

i know many will ask me dnt work lah!... yah if i can i will.. anw.. i planned to reduce 3 jobs to 2 jobs after Nov. hopefully i can hang on until Nov... or else wasted.... looking for one easy job. tuition? i cannot believe myself being a tutor HAHAS really NV think of it b4!

6) anxious when i don't see u the whole night. n i couldn't slp well ... n will go emo for holding it too long...

*msg to that gal.
please recover ASAP.. !
if u don't recover.. i will keep visiting u till u RECOVER uh! hahas hope that honey barley drinks do help in recovering your sore throat. rest more pls... see a doctor if necessary.. take extra care of urself. okay? :)
*imissyou & loveyou :)*
stupid gal... wanna know for what! its supposed to be a hidden heart to heart msg. not for you to dig it out. sigh.. well since u wanna dig it out, i shall let u see it and i simply wish thats msg will still be passed to you like how it is to be pass to your heart. :)
shilin's bday celebration will be updated soon! stay tune!

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tired.

1 more week and school starts.

fuckkk la. damn sian.
y school timetable so damn slow! i check it everyday but still no TIMETABLE OUT! left with 1 week only yet this NYP still don't give us our timetable. idiot!!!! i wanna know when i can end sch early la. dumb ass... super irritated now. hate to plan my weekly schedule. i don't
like the feeling to have planned working days. i feel so stress up. knowing when I'm working is so painful. hahas i work n work.. i still think i earn very little. when can i see one large sum of $$ coming into my bank. i want to have lots n lots of $$ in my bank so i can feel the satisfaction. HAHAS

super shagged.
no moood...
going to stone for awhile....

Confused....

continue to work or leave?

i have been cracking my head since sept. i can earn more income but i will have to work like a dog... what i mean by dog...??? its not just running up and down serving customers... BUT!!!! its about how our management. ALWAYS u can hear them mentioning work as a TEAM....Whole Team!? more of a empty TIN.. i think. -.-! i don't understand....

sometimes i feel so bored working there. so fake. i know its working life. different personality. still i dislike being someone who have to see people's faces. WTF! i'm not ur dog or wat... i'm here to work. same as all of u! i'm paid.. same to U! everyone who works there doesn't pay me! its the company. AND i think even if i were to say about this Company's xxx.... *not to mention. but i simply hate "***" to the core! WHAT THE **** ! u are just that talk cock machine.

i'm fine with running up and down.. doing all the dish up and all..... but i hate those people who treat outsider and OWN FREN differently. aren't we all working IN A TEAM? WHAT WE EMPHASIZE ALMOST EVERY MEETING????! NO? din they ALWAYS say TEAM WORK is SOOOOOOO IMPT? yah i agree too... but.. wth can these people do when they see u happy they treat u like A FREN.. when they see u like a idiot... they treat u like a dog. FCUK OFF LA!

1st of all.. i never regret working here. in fact i'm happy i learn new things and made some fun frens. there are many more things to learn. if only they are well manner, speak with more human sense.... i believe more part timer or even full timer will stay longer. i admit i'm a newbie, many things still unsure. especially drinks and all kinds of alcoholic stuff. BUT being a good bartender don't you think u should couch us b4 shouting at us? u think bar tender means big shot? ya big shot.... in talking cock only.... -.-!

sigh.... really cannot imagine how they can make it up with a poor management... still wanna open more outlets... HAHAS can la.. wait till the company see decreasing in their income lo.... Managers are good. but they doesn't know how to treat workers good. they only know they have to treat their boss better. see all the boot licker. HAHAS. laugh out my ass only.

if i leave... what i'm worrying is...... will they have enough ppl to help them to run up and down from river back to the dish up area and back to the tables and so on....... HAHAHAS.. i'm just kidding. =P hope they can really get a big bunch of ppl by NOV. coz shatec peeps are leaving soon. so saddd.... HAHAHAS

i think... i shall see hows my school timetable and i will make up my mind. the most i work till end of oct or nov. shall see ba. tired.. its 6.30am. freaking tired... nxt time i swear i won't work till 3am. coz they bull shit cheat our $$... drag us till 4.30am. fuck..no pay frm 3 to 4.30am! cheebye.... make me no slp again. sighhhh shall nap in the noon den. market market......my god.
ok,cya,nite,bye... drop dead...

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To: someone who is in pain now.....





don't pain areaddddyyyy!!!
HAHAHHAS!!!
hope u will feel better after this hug :) hehehee!!!
less pain le?

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woke up so damn early... as if i'm ready for school or ready for working day. hahas 8.30am! madddd..... still i couldn't get back to slp. so i decided to on my com and start to play with my cafe world. HAHAS many thinks i'm mad. yah.. i'm MAD i'm CRAZY! hahahas... someone keep saying "crazy ah" yes going to be crazy veryyyyyy SOOON!.

so com all the way until 4,5 pm... so was chatting with Shilin! and beat! and oso Kaisin!... all different conversation.

there's msg for all 3 of them. =)

1st!!! TAN SHILIN!!!!!
hellllo!!!! hahahahas..
u arh... must be so stress up because ur da yi ma havent come right??? must be la hahas.
don't so stresss uh!
don't sad, don't angry, don't worry... andddddd don't siannnnn!
working life is like this.. everyone do make mistakes. we have to learn from it and U GAINED Experience!!!! rmb.. u gain! u don't lose =)
if ur boss come after u.. den u go after ur LO.. hahas tell him or her.. ur OIC bully u! =P
ok la.. don't sad le uh! things will go on as normal after tonite 12!! okok...

i promise to get u icream... and its delivered to ur hs.. so cannot sad le... beat and i walked from bendemeer to 711 and back to bendemeer and back to 7 11 to get u this cookies and cream icream.. its our xin xue our sincere to get u that nice nice cookies and cream ice-cream =D beat n i buy for u.. so u eat le must feel extra extra happy uh =D promise ok!!! beat has run out of idea to cheer u up..spare her sometimes to get back those ideas okok hahahahahs... don't give that bitter gourd face anymore.. must :)) *kikikiz LOLX

BEAT!!!! this is for u now!
hey! haven't see u for sometime uh. see u now so tired.. i oso heart pain.. ouchhh.. u can see me feeling the pain? hahaa although just now i know i put in the "HAHAHAHA"at the wrong timing... but u know i din mean it.. coz i read too fast and i react a little fast as well.. so i put in the HAHAHAHA... now think back i think i'm so funnny haha sorry! =)
you just need some rest time. things will go on well soon or later ok.. must look at the bright side. sometimes we have to understand, thats not what we want too. but we have to bear it. and maybe.... face it as well. see u sad.. neither do i feel good. see our DP! have the same pair.. so musn't let ur pair feel sad as well ok! HEEE.... cya around soooon! stay strong and...... CHEERS!

LEE KAISIN! hahahas
u noe what.. i feel bad at times..
i think is because i haven't really get to see u and talk to u. like we are so distance at times.. now even when we chat in msn, i don't know what i can tell u.. what i can ask u.. coz u will either say the same.. or in fact what i asked is always the same questions.... u just got bored with my questions ba =p sorry... right now u are having fypj.. so are u doing great now? project hard?? are u bored in school?
are u happy with your life now? anyone bully u??
there's differences between now n the past. we no longer do things tgt. we cannot have break tgt as well. are all ur frens now being a good accompany?? they got make u feel lonely? must tell me okay? i wish to find u during lunch.. bt i don't know if u are free for me. don't wish to get u in trouble for not being in the lab. like me la... so naughty.. end up get a lousy grade. sighhh.. i regret.. though i had quite a fun fypj days..... hahaas okok
lets not make it so naggy hahahahahs.. i know i am.. bt i will shorten it as much as possible! hahaaaaa...
lets get tgt this coming monday? are u available?? :)

lastly... just a short one for this girl.
hahas.. yes i'm crazy... i'm always crazy over u!... nth else can make me so crazy..... only u..
just wish u are doing good everyday.. getting u drinks, getting u sweets is oso my favour pasttime. i'm used to it... don't say me crazy anymore.. coz i just will do it without any reason... just want u to be happy and feel refresh after a long day in sch and straight to work again....
see you so tired... i also don't know what i can do for you but wish those little things can make a different in ur day. if you don't like can just take it as free drinks given by some promoter? hahas though u drink it so many times.... hahahahahs bt still i can only say.. its all done with a simple heart.. wish you are always feeling happy and loved. :)

uncertain what i should do next. anyone to guide me ??

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