DID i say i'm looking forward to all my fridays in this 12weeks!!!!!?
reason being, its the last day of the weekkkk! i'm dreaded to stay in DBS doing those work. 1week is down! cool. left with 11weeks.. i'm gonna count down........... unlike FYPJ. i don't wanna count down any dates. instead.... i wanna add more n more days to it. HAHAs.. life in fypj is like staying in resorts HAHAHAHAS oppps.

1st week of IPP. tiring... and still tiring......
so...... 1st friday of IPP which was ytd. =) i decided to Chiong out and PLAY hard!... called a few Steady frens to join the FUN. :)) hahahahas.. i'm looking for more steady friends.. where are you ppl?? hahas the more the merrier arh! XD
went REBEL :))
actually rhow wanted to go butter Factory. aiyoo sorry coz i wanna see someone. so decided to insist on going to REBEL. hee psps.. next time i wanna go butter or power hs! okok??! =D
after work at DBS. go home and wash up n rest a bit. 10pm! yeah! go meet rhow and JJ. hahas sorry to keep JJ waiting. gals are always like tat de la. =P pls forgive hahas..

wanted to reach there b4 11pm. haiz still late by a few mins. damn... no 1 for 1. bt ytd i din drink a lot.. just used up the 2 coupons and we went to the dance floor.
met amanda and frens. :))
was asked to join them. hahas funny lorr.. becoz most of her frens doesn't wanna dance with her. or rather don't really dance, so i was asked to pei her dance. HAHAs.. hope i din bored you too. maybe someother time we will go club tgt. hahas if u don't mind calling me along lo..... heh heh..

ytd nite was a turn offfff la.i mean the music in REBEL. ZZZ i dont feel high at all la. ZZ throughout the whole nite. those nice songs like stuck in the DJ butt..... -.- nv FART it out la... tskk so bored of those unknown remix. just wont get high to the max lo. siannnn... trying to make ourself high bt no matter how hard we tried... it will change back to the --------- mood. sighh...
however we still get to relax and outcast from our stressful world for a little while. =D i was screaming out my lungs...... i hate DBS ... i wan to DESTRESSS.... :)) JJ accompany me to scream hahas.. so funny de lo...
hmmmmm..... after 2plus AM, amanda n frens are leaving ... :(
think they are hungry or felt warm in that enclosed REBEL. hahas
so HUGS b4 seeing her off. SHe bu de arhhh..... sigh..

usually we will club all the way until lights on. however, last nite we went off at 3.45am. coz... the atmosphere seems to be getting more n more dull... hahas you can see us moving for the sake of moving on the dance floor damn funny de.

hmmmm.... ying wei she bu de.. wo men you jian mian le. hahahas..
din noe where to go... amanda forgot to bring her hs key.. dumb gal so careless.. she din wan to wake her mum up so i accompany her to wait until we see sunlight. :))
even its dark in the night, i looked at her small cute face.... i will smile somehow. so cute de lo.
whole night we were sitting on one of the bridge steps. Chit Chat.... talk anything under the Moon. hmmmmm nono it should be under the *brightBIRD up in the sky! dumb dumb... know which bird i'm refering to?? hahas that bird just right above us. so bright.. yet a not moving bird. :) hahas..

walked to the MRT in the "early Morning" some ppl dnt consider it as EARLY MORNING... keep saying she din slp at all how can it be Early morning! ...... hee so cute de lo. i noe u nv slp very tired.. somemore working the nxt day. feel so heart pain for you. haiz don't so workaholic can...

pics to be uploaded soon.. i'm tired.. just feel like dosing off right now. dnt wanna care anything.. dnt wanna think of anything.. just................... close my eyes....

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i feeel like dying......



i wannnnnna go clubbing right now! like NOW.. or rather tml!!! cant stand the stress in dbs. haiz.. everyone is sooooo working freak.. no one enjoy their life like how we students enjoy!!!! we get to on music and work ... we get to take breaks when tired... we get to submit things late.... bt NOW i see everyone is so into their work. no time to slack.. or rather no time to even chat online.. facebook... or view ppl's blog and so on. F la... damn sian ..... 11 more weeks



i'm gonna have heart attack soon!.

everyday i'm facing those ppl.. those working freaks... those ppl who will tell me "Oh.. later can help me do this?? do that??? like wat they say, i have to catch it SO immediate la. haiz........

they will always ask me to do things like "ehhh later help me to do this graph out. erm.... like this n like tats.... "blahhhhh......~~~ den i willl like HUH?? wth u toking.. bt can only nod my head and say "oh ok..." afterwards i will have this BIG time figuring out how to solve their problem. -.-!!!



the whole morning din get to rest at all. straight out is sending mails... editing excels documents.

my brain is not working....
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FUCK! i wrote so much... dumb internet hang... CB..... lazy to retype wat i wrote..

SIan simply jus fuck those OFFICE JOB... no life no life...
now jus feel like starring into the space n stare until i fall aslp!!! not gonna wake up anymore!

is this like finally!!!

i finally find my time to blog =D
have been so busy soooo tired.. .
everyday reached home... within an hour, i will fall aslp. Not even have the time to switch on my com and facebook or blog. =((( time so limited... TIRED - DREADDD....

so today.... i told myself, no matter what i will have to find time and blogggggggg .... blog out my life in DBS.. my recent happenings...

Monday~
1st day to DBS.
woke up damn early...
met ppl from NYP... train tgt..
reached DBS tower 1 at 9 plus. called my OIC. was being brought up to level 31. omg soooo high! hahahas..

went round to introduce. ehhhh like kind of formal everywhere i go. hahas
settle down next to the BOSS. hmmm they all say i got a BOSS seat! haha bt i dnt like there. coz no nice senery to view eh. well... 1st day was boring. i fallen aslp afew times.

asked to read about their dept stuff. yawnnnn.... tiredddd
end at 6.30pm -.-! so late... haiz hsh...

Tuesday~

goshh.. again woke up in the morning..... tiredddd
today will alight at tajong pagar.
stupid me lost my way.. haiz late!
bt well becoz i need to exchange my Vpass. i called my incharge to bring me up soooo.. he doesnt noe i just reached hahas. opps.. heng...
was asked to do some excel report.. email... and even went to attend a meeting with one of the SVP.. ehhhhhhhh formal meeting okay.. =S so scared.. bt was asked to sit n listen... and me tis dumbdumb gal! didn't bring anything along with me! omgggg... so PS! coz everyone is writing something and yet i'm sitting there and listen.. nv do anything nv say anything... like an ass la. -.-! soo.. learnt a lesson. Was said by this lady from this company we had meeting with. she said i was lucky to have this change to view a real meeting session. yah... i agree. but so PS la..

Haiz like dumbdumb.. sitting inside for 1 hour and do nth. nxt time will rmb to bring a book where ever i gooooo.
sooo... tue i was asked to do more things. another thing is.... we communicate through email!!! everything alll email! even say a thank you oso email! hahas... omg.. no internet no msn no facebook... only DBS intranet! haiz..
so i end off my day with a GOODBYE.. but i guess the ppl there will end work at 7pm?? or even later?? coz i leave at 6.20pm, they like looked at me as if i took early off la. ZZZ i got no choice wat.. meeting amanda at mrt. dnt wan to be late. somemore........ i supposed to end at 6.15pm le not 6.30pm not 7pm! however... i got a feel i will end work everyday at 7pm.. or rather 6.45pm. haizzzz....

Wedenesday~
soooo 3rd day only.. i was late again!~ ehhh no no ... not late bt woke up late! goshhh rush like mad.. just feel like taking a day off. or hack care if i reached later.... bt i cant! its not FYPJ.. i cannot sign in late or ask ppl help me sign in. coz NO SUCH THING!
no choice... i msg my fren to go ahead with meeting me. so i cab to work. =( 12 bucks...... omggggg

sooo nxt thing is to change my v pass.... and this dumbdumb guard dnt let me change.. so i called daniel incharge of me now. he came all the way dwn and gave a pissed look at the guard.. "wat is this!!! wat kind of rules ur have! u expect me to cum dwn everyday to just show u my pass and let her get her v pass????!" he damn pissed... in fact today in the morning everyone was kind of pissed. hahahahs.. i see him angry with the guard... den follow cecilla who called someone....*no idea who is tat... and start to talk.... after sometime.. they start to shout! omggg... like so fierce! ZZZ well.. its only morning.. they are so moddless ardy =( i was asked to call IBM service line and asked abt my email configuration... also asked to learn how to book a meeting room and so on.. machim their assistant.. hahaha LUCKY to say... currently i dnt ned to do coding!! yeahhh! =))

after lunch.. i see a lttle better in the atmosphere.
after a few hours ... someone came with crunchy APPLES!! hahas she asked me.... WOULD you like to have some apples :)) haha so nice! thank you!

nxt moment.... someone came with boxes of nice puff.. and choco bis... wah nice nice =)) haha
soooo its about 6pm... goshh daniel call me for a meeting.. hmmmmmmmmm starts at 6pm... end at 6.45pm.. =( again go home late.. haizzz saddd

tml will be more things to do.... goshh like more n more things are given to me... i learnt bt i scared i cannot cope. jy lo!!! i wan to finish everything they ask me to do.. hahas i can de! =P

life now is sooooooooooooo different.. no freedom.. no time for myself.. no time for my frens.. no time... no timeeee... everyday DBS.. everyday see the crowds.. everyday wear formal.. =( everydayy............

this is amanda... haha she likes to take pics of her OWN!! and so dumbdumb de... forever the same post. haha

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i got a real shocked when i recieved 1 offline message from Amanda... next is a more shocking one.... a email from Rhowena! omgomgomg... you know this is the 1st time i receive such msg when i'm feeling down. hmmmm.. really. i'm touched and almost tears..

OFFLINE MSG FROM AMANDA~

amanda! you noe wat... i really nv tot of receiving a offline msg from you. coz i tot after last night conversion. we might just keep slience for awhile again. hahas just feel that way. bt was so surprise to recieve your offline msg when i reached sch this morning. =)) kind of touched when i read how u try to console me HAHAHAHS... so cute lo.. you even end of with....
snowsecrets@live.com.sg sent 5/21/2009 1:05 AM:
i suck at this
snowsecrets@live.com.sg sent 5/21/2009 1:05 AM:
jiayu!
hahas.. was smiling at it when i read until here. =)) thank soo much my dearrrrr amanda!!! =D
i really feel there's a different when i chat with you in the past and now.

the past we will nv talk more than 10 sentences.. i'm serious.. i do take note. =PP so PS to say it la.. HAHAHAHS
now... should say after 2008... we tend to chat more.. or even meet up just that randomly.. :) glad that i can see you AGAIN! hahas the feeling is like.... woahh COOOL hahahahahs..
although you says i changed a lot. bt... i'm actually the same hwan when u 1st know me.. you know that? hahas.. sometimes things will never change even if she went through so many things without u being there to share and enjoy with her... yahhh.. so don't think its only becoz of the past and so its all faded ... its not that easy one noh... hahahas u noe urself well too.. i don't wanna mention hahahahs... later kanna scolding again =P

hey gal! i really wish friendship between us will maintain like this. not ON and OFF those kind. OK :)) miss ya.. <3>

NEXT..... surprising Email from this gal name RHOWENA~~~ omgg.!


hey.. rhoww!
usually i wont read e-mail.. bt happened to see your name in my hotmail... at 1st i wanted to delete it away... coz i thought its some forward msg.... but somehow... i think twice.. coz have a feeling its not a forward email. hahasss
soooooo when i starts to read your mail.. i feel the warmth in u trying to console me.. really i'm really touched! i almost teared .. actually my eyes are watery ardy... =X coz i never recieve such an email... NEVER... u take your time n efforts to write me an email to console me.. WAH... i really don't noe wat to say.. bt a BIG THANK YOU! you made my day!.. i'm serious!!! i really wish to see you now! and HUG u so tighttttt! hahahs.. opps..

i love to have a fren like you! coz i will treasure..
let me see... i known you almost a yr? wah.. we din even talk when i 1st saw u.. coz i nv have same lesson as u.. indeed i noe u thru beat.. hahas was a long story hUh.. ehhh maybe i forward abit hahahas.. yep.. you gave me an impression that you are so fierce.. you won't wanna talk to me.. hahas always so quiet.. ONLY until we did have somewhat heart to heart chatting.. den.... i find u as a friendly and Easy going gal. =)) realllly! u can be very ON.. very straight forward gal.

although at times you are quite stubborn.. bt hahahs.. i noe u are like tat la..
i will NEVER forget you said..... "I WANT TO BE TROUBLEFREE... AND I WILL" cool.. i like this sentence.. =)) i hope you are having good life now.. i would like to meet up with u for some dinner or SUPPER! hahahas.. drive me around! show me you did overcome your fear!OK? hahahas..
TAKE CARE! =D ciaooo.

another peers i have! that no other than....KAISIN & BEATRICE!!!
no matter when i'm feeling down.. these 2 gals will approached me the nxt moment to ask about whats going on.. and why so emo.. why so sadd... i really appreicate them. you noe your are counted part of my life since we form this threesome thingyy.. hahas really.. sometimes i will just think of what we had did in the past. like so crazy.. so insane.. so FUN and soooo ON.. we never fail to not laugh when we are tgt. HAHAHAS i love you and YOU! hahahaahhaahs... your are awesome.. before i know i will seperate with you guys when i process to my yr 3.. i really don't noe what to do.. i feel so empty. feel so alone.. feel like not coming school. not wanting to go for my IPP or FYPJ.. thats how i feel that period of time when we are having our term break.. Sighh

well.. i learnt to overcome somehow...
i know we still have to be independent..
BUT still without you ppl i think i will be AN EMO KID for yrssss... and reallly YRSSSS... coz i'm not like that crazy in the past.. i'm always keeping things to myself MYSELF... until i noe ur.. i let out a lot of secrets.. and also changed character. =) i would LIKE TO SAYYYYYY A BIG THANK YOU TO U N U!! HEE.... your noe who la.. no other dennnnnn BEATRICEEEE AND KAISINNNN! HAHAHAS
LOVESSS threesome!.. <3

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arh.. an emo day had been turned into a surprising day! i feel much better after seeing all this msg from my beloved frens! i love you guysss..... never forget this special thursday.
1 more day to end of FYPJ... misses and also nervous..

i will end off my 2nd LONGGGG post of the month! hahas ciaoo..

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My mind's unweaving/ 11:11 AM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

TODAY ISSN'T MY DAY.

RIGHT NOW I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING OUT LOUD.... YOU KNOW WAT IS SCREAMING OUT LOUDDDDDDD..... FUCK TAT SHIT. FUCK EVERYONE OF YOU... I'M SERIOUSLY IN A DUPER BAD EMO FUCKING CHEEBY MOOOOD...

I DON'T NOE HOW TO EXPLAIN. JUST FEELING DAMN DEPRESS RIGHT NOW. I HATE MYSELF.. I HATE MY CONCIOUS.. I DN'T WANNA THINK OF ANYTHING............... BT MY MIND JUST DON'T WANNA LISTEN TO ME. FUCK ASSSSSS.

WHATTTTTTT THEEEEE HELLLLLLL.... KANENABE~~~
i mess up my life now. i really got no aim right now.... i dontnoe what is going on since the day i started my yr 3 track. i find myself like a crazy ass.. totally goes out of mind!

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
uvgrfojnwdskcm [ogrifveodsklm jfdkcls238049eu....

i dontnoe why....... =(
i feel miserable.. i feel like dying......

today presentation is a CANNOT make it kind of thing. i feel so lousy. i feel so idiot.. i feel so helpless.. i feel like a liar.....
again ... in this ONE day..... i'm again someone who feel so EMO!... 1st... lack of slp.. 2nd.. rushing ppt slides.. 3rd... reached sch with a heavy head.. 4th... feeling so empty.... 5th... no idea whats going on with my ppt slides.. nth goes into my brain... 6th... dragged presentation time, feeling more stress... 7th... called out by loosee.. had a lecture frm her... =((( heart sink to the bottom straight away...=...( 8th... noe i din do well for my fypj.... 9th.. noe i'm a sent back student... bt show no progress in my fypj..=((((( i'm a useless person... its not my luck right now... 10th.. having more stress on my cuming IPP... its DBS.. afraid i will make mistakes again. 11th.. presentation started.. was to present my slides. stumbled, unable to answer the qus. not one bt almost all my slides... got a bad facial expression on both of the t-cher. 12th... feel that all these are like my retribution... i always said something and yet nv give my words... i'm an idiot....
13th.. i do give myself too much hope. the more you hope the more u get hurt.. its true. sighh 14th.. out of sudden... my mind went blank.. can feel the heat on my face.. tears falling out bt still managed to control and hold back part of it. 15th... my plan for today is kind of spoiled by my mood. ZZ 16th.. my dumbdumb hp faced problem.. need to send for servicing. 16th.. last min.... couldnt find the right person to accompnay me..... suddenly feel lonely again. wth.. i'm confuse........
i'm tired and yet i still wish to complete it asap.. i just dnt have the feeel to make anything now.

hiaz..

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My mind's unweaving/ 11:48 PM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

another week gone..

its week 12. soo it means i left with only............5days?? omg.
new life.. new routine.. new n new N NEWWWW!! i need to adapt to the new environment....... BAAHHHHHH... tired you noe! haizzzz

today i need to rush my final presentation slides. kind of stresssss up. haiz coz tml is my actual presentation. i'm still reading up. nth really goes into my brain!

my brain is somehow freezed..
no idea what i should do...
everything past sooo fast. my fypj is gone in 3 days time. WAHHHHH =((((

my days in NYP also will pause after this week. 6months no need to face NYP.. good or bad?? i can't decide. sighhh...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... beat n kaisin!~
hahahs.. i noe ur oso not used to it la.. coz i away from nyp.. ur got not where to go during break HAHAHS>>>.<<< noe wat! u can actually train dwn to raffles place to find me for lunch!..... HEH HEH!! kidding la.. ur can only meet me for dinner lo. =) dnt sad HAHAHAS
haiz IPP at DBS is really long hourssssssssss la plus i cannot use MSN.. no blog.. no FACeBOOK... wat else.. many things being restricted! =(((((((

i'm tried NOW!
ytd was a long day out there!...
morning woke up at 5.30am.. went jog. back home to wash up n went meeting Amanda and Tong for BF at J8. is kind of random coz we haven't seen each other for almost 7 or 8 months.. hahas and this time we met is with a new fren. haha litong!!!! funny and nice gal. crap alot too. =) hahahahs took an hour or so to finish up our BF.. and headed to sch....

HAHAS something i din do.. so we met for a dinner in the evening.. hahas same ppl came for the dinner. tong n aman.. dinner at BISHAN again. HAHAHS had Cafe Cartel. chit chat weird thingggs... and stroll around J8... hahahs pity aman. cozzzz she work there, stay there, and she is SOO BORED OF J8 ardy la hahahas... next time we go else where lo.. okkkk!!! =)

hmmmmm yes i like this kind of meet up. so! busy aman!!! rmb to spare time for me arh =) hahaas...miss ya.. as for tong !! yeah we will meet every week at least once bah. hahas working is only a source of INCOME for meeeee hahahas.. sooo hope u will look at it as a little piece of cake in ur life hahahahas... CAKE better or cheeze or maybe u prefer PASta! LOLX... hehe hehe. take it easy alrightttt.

haiz................what a long post i had.
many things are coming and leaving... i cannot control....
so just be it. hmmm...

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My mind's unweaving/ 10:07 AM

Monday, May 11, 2009

its a long time since i upload single picture! recently due to having interest in editing photos using photoscape..... i combine all my pics into one piece. hmmmm out of sudden, i feel like uploading it piece by piece. =))

soooooooo actually there are more pics! i jus choose some that are nice. the rest are reveal on facebook. go check it outttt! =)
yup! pics are getting more n more over me recently.. threesome tend to take more fun shots again!!! hahahahaas

fypj ending soooon!
noe what!!!! 2 things in my mind...
1st! nxt wed is our presentation!!! n i still left with a lot not completed... dntnoe whats the outcome by next wed! haizzzzz sian la.... i feel stresssssssss! i hate it. if u noe me well, u will noe i start to get fed up n impatient if i can't do my work plus its near to the dateline le=(

sighhhhhh... 2nd thing..... 1 n haf more weeks.... i no longer coming nyp to do projects.. nor studies.... i misssssssss nyp... i missssssssss my fypj room! i miss 3some & friendssss i misss ....!!!! hahahas aiyooo don't noe la. so cannot adapt to the new routine again! need sometime lor.
=(((((

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... nxt is my formal wear la! sian need to purchase more!!! coz got into DBS.. most likely is wearing formal everyday!!! u seeee i only have 2 sets of formal. how to survival thru out the 3 months!
recently i need to buy a lot of things.. clothessss, i wan a new bag! idiot!! and also have been spending on food hahahahs.. my favourite pastime is toooooooo EAT! heh heh... yuup..
mayb i need to cut dwn on food n tak the $ to buy my clothesss! yeaahhh! alright i'm tired! i need my slp! good nite!

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My mind's unweaving/ 3:59 PM