is this all we can do?

its never like we can't.. but we don't....

if you take it, you see a happy us..
if you leave it and there goes another emo sole.

there's never right or wrong.
there isn't a specified timing for you to catch it.

but when the moment is right... there you go.. its yours..
everything just have to go by that sense and feel.
if this special moment hits you, its fated to be yours. i believe 99% will be yours.. (:

i'm to say all this because i'm always hoping upon miracle.
why miracle? i don't know...
maybe if you did realised...
miracle do stand a least chance of 0.01%.
it is definitely better than a never try/hope...

day by day.. this world is changing bit by bit.. and again if you did realised..
we human can hold on to something for years and never ever forget what its deeply engraved in their memories. it will always stay there till we are vanished from this world.

i finally understand why adults always say being a kid is never gonna be as stress as an adult. each day we are adding more and more stuff into our brain. slowly, its accumulating.
sigh.. life is never easy..

"if only" is never near..
so what is what?
complicated is what i know about life..

Labels: before i head off

it all begins with a whole hearted of yours..

it all depends if you can hold it there.

i know it's never easy to do it yet there is always this will to make it possible.


my life can be affected badly.. yet it can be brighten up with colours..

just having you is enough to gain all these happiness. (:

iloveyou... n definitely missyou (:

you rocks my world.. <3

good nites....

Labels: offtobottletree321

i'm sure they are pissed with my behavior and attitude. i'm sorry..

i feel extremely lousy after this morning lecture from dad.

yes, i admit i haven't been giving my trust to you all. i'm sorry.. i felt i'm such an ass too.. =(


i break my promise, i never ask for permission.. i even make my own decision on things that does not belong to me. i'm to be blame right? yes.. its all me ... sigh

recently i'm not in any stable mood. Feelings are always down or emo.. i believe being alone for quite sometimes will lead to pessimistic me. i don't know how to face my life at times. its just so out of control and tears will start to roll down. =(

人生真的很不容易走。。 一旦跌倒就不容易站起来了。就算能看开也不可能永远放开。。 就比如割伤的伤口 会永远留下那疤痕。。没那么容易恢复。

想想。。 做人真不容易。
除非 。。。。 ？？(never really thought of what's a real happy life for me) i guess i'm still searching for it..

Labels: whats life?

tiring day...
fun n umi..

good nites..

Labels: nites

when time is ripe.. everything will be settled down.
are mine riped?

hahas.. i'm thinking again..
i never know what i will become one day..

but i know what i am now.

i see the differences in me compared to the past.

i see myself growing up. i see myself learning more n more things.. i see myself slowly becoming an adult. that's so miracle. i rmb those thoughts when i were still young. i have this thinking that everything is so big to me. i'm still so small to handle anything.. i need to ask permission and all before i do anything.
perhaps all those thoughts are part of our growing up process.
right now, i'm to handle things myself. what we always hear from our parent "when we grow up, we need to handle more stuff.. more stress." things aren't that simple anymore. every little thing need to be considered before we make our decision.

i miss those life..
sleepy head wants to head to bed le.. nites..

Labels: so missed

i'm sorry..
i feel moody still..

i mean it.. &
why don't you believe me?

its so nice to hear that from you... (:
i'm trying..

i know i need to control.

i'm tired..
new week.. and i have to pay off so much... i'm gonna kill myself very soon.. sigh

Labels: its never enough

i know i don't give big impact...

i just hope i'm the one who cares..

be it or not..

i really want to see that happy life of yours..

i'm so freaking cracking my brain to think what i can do...

i really wish i can do something...
please.. jiayou... (: i know u can.

many people do believe in you too...
don't give up.. its never too late.


`````````````````````````````````````
why...?

i'm having something to think again.

i hear... i see... i feel...

this 4 letter words.

its so sweet.. its so crazy...

but it can be so different in another hand.

its painful ... its hurting...

why? if only its always gonna be like this.. "So Sweet" i believe this will make everyone go so fine.. caring.. loving... peaceful...

i wish for a better future.(:

`````````````````````````````````````````````````````

a new life.. isn't it great?

i believe in having optimistic mind..
lets do it. (:
loves (:
& thats me. (:

Labels: RuGouZheJiuShiAiQin

well.. today my mood went from that `````` High..... to.... this ______ low...

i did mention in my twitter i'm looking forward to a new start. yes i am. i'm bringing along my happy and carefree mood out.. yet i came home with this super upset.. pain in me... anger in me... stressfulness in me... sigh.. these feelings are making me tense up..

all thanks to those bastard guys.. especially that no integrity guy who have his cheeks to even feel that he isn't at fault. what can these guy become one day? seriously.. gentleman are diminishing in this world. he can just play off his life man.. hope he got himself Acquired immune deficiency syndrome .. or Human immunodeficiency virus .. damn .... u will get it one day.. not to be cursed.. u just deserved it.

sigh.. so pissed with his reaction and replies. non of it shows that he is apology at all. what can his brain be filled with?nth but ass? is he only up will all those Fucking CB Life?? if you really think your looks is the above average. i will like you to look yourself in th mirror. never will you be any good looking with that ugly heart. you're an empty shell. actually.. not even fit to be a shell... a empty pill of SHIT? oh man... i cannot believe.. i can describe shit as EMPTY... cool man.. only such ass will have such shitty name. hahas.. i love it! u seriously SUCKS! u TOoh!

alright.. say so much he wont even read. hah.. lets safe my energy for other things else ba.

hey girl.. i'm sorry..
sorry for not knowing how to console you.. i'm not good at it.. i notice myself only recently... sorry..
hope you feel better after those cries.. though i don't wish to see u cry.. coz you never once cried and not feel pain or upset. =( i feel so pain to see u i pain too...

i know whatever i have said, its not powerful enough to get you your confident.. but you have to know that it never too late to start a new. you should know you are still young. you have got too many things to do in 1 couple of years time. pls look at the bright side. love life just not coming your way now. u can make a little twist? n work hard on other path now. nothing is impossible. plus you have got so many cool n wonderful dreams to fulfill. wahh u make me feel like you have really got bright future. i foresee all of your great achievement you know? really... that scene always appear in my mind. you are someone who shines up there in a couple of years time.

hmmm... life is always changing.. like there's this Chinese phrase 就的不去，新的不来. its the same when you dont stop yourself from thinking of those past. you will never get over it. you have to even feel that he isnt worth to be nicely treated, i just feel like going to him n give him a tight slap.. LIKE NOT JUST ONE! arggg... he pissed me off damn badly..

xin tong .. ouchx..
i'm tired after a long day out there.. i need some slp.. i hope you are slping soundly now.. good nights..

Labels: pain anger

hahas..

Labels: thatsme

I've got some places i want to go....
awaiting.....

looking forward....

yeshhh...

they are no other than Marina Bay Sand Hotel plus the Whole IR..
i doubt normal visitor can just enter and explore around ba. :( shall see...

i will like to stroll around Marina Bay too. Esp the cris cross bridge. damn big n high uh..
next to it... its the flyer. dnt say i sua gu.. coz i never went up before.. i will like to have a ride when the whole construction is done (:

yup... this is just part of where i want to go.

next will be our beautiful island... no other than our SENTOSA Resort!
i want to enter the Universal studio? i don't know what is like in there. i want to play the themePark.. is there any in there? ohh man.. i miss playing all those exciting thrilling games. whoot!

and of course.... i will like to enjoy my sun bathing under the shining sun (: so loving it...

these are more of time consuming activities. also require more people to enjoy the fun together uh... when when when?? i'm waiting...

i'm going to plan things out soon =))
i need to achieve it.. will i? can i?
i have to! (:

i start to love the sun more and more... i need you very soon.. please.. stay there (:

Labels: seesunsoon

Do you know how to forget one? Is to stop contacting that one AS WELL AS those who are close to THAT ONE! Silly...

this is meant for someone who doesn't know her limit and still trying to make herself feel pain... oh well.. upon hearing about you aren't home yet.. and still with a "stranger" guy fren.. I'm kind of pissed with you. sigh.. when then will you be more obedient sighh...

Wanting to care for you really keeps my heart pumping faster.. esp when i know you aren't safe at home at such late timing!
pls.. i hope you are really working hard towards your plan. RMB my BOLD sentence! Stop having so much contact with someone who keep you out of your mind. they don't do any good to you. keep that in mind plsssssss..... sigh..

3am le.. yet you are still loitering... bad girl..

Labels: you.. yes is YOU