WHATS WITH ME MAN!!!!

I'M CRAZY!
SO NOT LIKE ME TODAY.

I DON'T FEEL EXCITED OVER ANYTHING I'M GOING TO DO.
MORNING WAS OKAY. BUT AFTER NOON, I'M SO EMO! SO MONDAY BLUEEEE.... SO NO WILL TO DO ANYTHING.

I EVEN DON'T FEEL HUNGRY IF I NEVER EAT MY DINNER! WAHHHHH ...
beat says is becoz of red bomb. but..... i never had such feeling when i'm being bombed. ehhh today i
usually i enjoy eating. enjoy the time when i use my computer. enjoy the time when i end work. i enjoy listening to R&B music. but why? i don't feel anything today. i don't have anything in my mind now. not even wanna go sleep. wth... i tried to drink more cough medicine... hoping i can feel sleepy. but since 11pm until now..... i'm like an owl.... goshhh.. ytd night oso the same. i wrote something almost till 4am yet i feel nothing. never once fall aslp. until this random second...... i just bOOM dead drop into my lala land.*lappy not off.

everything i eat is like tasteless. wtShit... my mama brought 50kg of durian from malaysia. -.-! durian sia... i never even dash out of my room to grab it. even when my mama call us out...... not once but a few times...... i still never wanna go out to eat those durians. no wei kou to eat anything. be it choco, durians, waffles, coco crunch, even when i open my fridge, i never have the excitement to hope there will be nice food in there. wahhhh serious thats not like me la.

issit because i'm having cough, sore throat, wisdom toothache? ayee..... bt i don't feel xinku eh. they never irritate me at all. freakkkk...
whatever la. hope tml morning will be okay.

well, before i end. these 3 people i will want to say thank you.
they tried a lot ways to cheer me up. 1st is this girl who tried soooo hard to ask me not emo,not sad, not sian.....since afternoon when sms-ing me. sorry but i never want to be like this shit. hahas she cheer me up until she almost wanted to hack care me le. aiyooo... omg. sorrry lur..

next is beat, she approach me and ask me soooo long never chat! and sooon its kaisin. aiyo both of them always come in the right time de. =) thank sooo much. i know both of you are trying soooo hard to make funny things to make me laugh. i tried bt if i never, i'm sorry.... i seriously tried...... =)

alright..i end here... i think my excess of medicine finally works! i feel slpy le.. YES ....
i update soon. =)

Labels: moodless

so emo for a moment. yet feeling energetic the next minute.
hahas. i don't know why i have such thinking, behaviour and weird thoughts. but that's me. :)

don't ask why.. but accept what i am. or else ignore me. easy and simple.

oh yah. hows my new blog skin. HAHAs must be wondering i also nv change much what! only PICS updated..... tag board changed a new one.... and also my background added some colours. =)

ok today i'm a slacker..
market then home sweet home.
eat lunch...... slpt like a pig...
all the way until 6pm.

woke up watch tv.... n rdy to eat dinner. OMG really like a pigggg.....
planned to go joggin at 8plus.. bt used com and delay until i lazy go dwn. wahhhh seriously i'm damn lazy today..... eat n slp , slp n eat. ARHHHH

tml! i planned my day ardy... so most likely is to go according to my plan!

sian thought can dnt ned to go market. so i can stay at home to pack my stuffs. den go jog in the morning. bt mum say die die oso have to go. HAIZZZZ

tml after market i think i will have to go for an eyebrown threading and follow by a visit to TPY library to borrow some boooks hahas.. rare HUH???? bt no choice i have to borrow this book titled DREAMWEAVER!.. for working needs.
haiz....... so fast my weekend ending sooon!

ok nvm.. tml better make use of my time to do all the things i wan to do!!

i wanted to update pics and my outing days with PEEPS... bt i seriousssssllly damn lazy now. just wanna shut my eyes and slp..........
hahas.. okok.. today is about it. :)

HEYYYY! anyone noe library close what time on sunday???
THANKSSS

i willlll update again. tata... nites

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WHAT a sleepy day in DBS.

asusal, i reached work place at 9am. today more of a slack and take my own time to walk to work. The past, i always rush my way to work bt today i just feel that i'm still early. i still have time.. soooooooo kind of slowly walked to work. hahas stupid. keep thinking i can reached at 8.45am.... still i reached at 9am. hahas whatever.

so walked to my desk. settle down. switch on my computer. less than 10mins. i start to doze off.

-.-!! wth la. just reached only eh........ haiz i seriously did consider if i'm suitable for an office job la. hahas Wondering~~~

sighh... can you imagine? from 9.15am till lunch time i stil have 2/ half hours to goooo.... freaking xin ku. if i got nothing to do its still ok to let me doze off every few second. BUTBUT!!!! its not that i can just act and looked at the screen and fall aslp. i was asked to amend a report. adding in the formulas. -.-! know how tedious it is to look at one cell at a time and copy the formula and paste it into the other cell. somemore the cells are THAT SMALL!!! this small!!!!! wahhhh! i can simply doze off everytime i click on one cell before pasting it onto another cell. >.<>

today's time past damnnnnn s-l-o-ww........ i'm awaiting for my lunch... from 9.35am... i looked at the time. thinking wah.. so long to my lunch. can faster anot!!! pissed!!~

after dozing off a few times, again i looked at my watch. FREAKKkkkk! 9.45am only! god damn it. y so slowwww... i still need to hold on to my sleepy-ness for how long! siannn!

decided to walked to the toilet for a nap HAHAHA!.

hp with me. and off i gooooo... slpt in the last cubical for 15mins. arhhhhhh... sian. need to go back if not later ppl tot y the last cubical keep so quiet HAHAS. sleeping in the toilet has ardy be part of my working life now. =P usually everyday i need a 30mins "toilet Break" heh heh... dumb right. but no choice. i need that 30mins! its like taking DRUGS LOLXXX

back from toilet. fighting against the "sleepy devil" making me so crazy for the whole morning. finallly! so delighted to see this email FROM!!! CHARLES!!!!! haha coz whenever i see his mail, i know its lunch time =D

however, this time round, its not "LUNCH WHERE? WHAT TIME?" INSTEAD its... "HEYYY... TODAY I CAN'T JOIN UR FOR LUNCH. HAVING MEETING AT 12!!!" HAHAHAS sad. coz in a few mins time another 2 frens oso send me an mail saying hey today u guys can go 1st. i have something to do.... blahh blahhh... sighh. JJ not ard. so quiet. my morning is a DULL one.

BUT... still there's pei yu and liting. hahas the 2 gals are waiting for my mail. coz i will tell them where to have lunch =))) heee...

12noon!

ZROOMMMM.......... i dnt care about my report. went down to meet that 2 girls. off to have our lunch. damn it. another meal which cost a bomb. haiz tml i will eat things that are less den 5bucks hahahas. well. after lunch!

i make sure i buy ANYTHING THAT CAN KEEP ME AWAKE!

I'M SERIOUS! went to get KOPI C. ......RMB JJ SAID REDBULL HELPS A LOT FOR HIM. so grab one from the mini mart. wahhhh din noe a redbull cost 2.50! =.=! haiz nvm....... buy and spare it for my next 4hours. sighhhhh.

walked back to office.

today's conversation also not very hyper. i think becoz i'm tired. moodless. so nv really joke around and make lame remarks. hahas nvm tml?? maybe.

back to office. ehhh bored. report finishing soon. so since no one is looking at me. its time for me to CAMWHORE!!! hee. see my drinks?? coffee, cum redbull. hoping i can open my big eyes through the whole day until 6.15pm. =D

on the other hand. i'm afraid tonite i cannot slp. HAHAS
coz i actually finished both the drinks. "WOAHHH" "WOAHH"

hmmmmmm.......... after lunch. time past slightly faster.

just before i was about to fall aslp again.*thinking wats wrong with me* drank both SOOO POWERFUL DRINKS still useless???!!!
out of sudden. my "partner" sitting behind me. gave a "big sighhh" arh! i turn back and looked at him. hahas so he actually finished one of his task. feeling so relieved. =))

and he asked me wether i'm free to go for tea break? hmmmm well. although i'm kind of FULL. bloated with redbull and kopiC..... wanted to waste a little of my time. and prevent myself from falingl aslp again. i agreed to go for a break. :)

i feel that with him around i feel more relax. like anything i can seek for his help. hee... he is also very nice. tell me a lot about working life and what are the pro n cons in working in banks.. and so fore...... appreciated! *ohhh.. btw he has a not bad looking appearance and he's attire make him looked smart! i admire wor! heh heh...

COFFEE TOAST!

had a break over there. i'm kind of in love with coffee toast TEH c... hahas nice! n SOOOO fragrance! so even i'm Soooooo bloated with those POWERFUL drinks i had b4, i still buy myself a cup of TEH C hahas.... (today i spent more on drinks than food) *not like me sia. i'm not a drinking person*

alright... after that tea break... i'm like 90% charged! hahas..... stupid sia... going end work den so hyper! -.-! dumbdumb... nvm tonite will make use of my energy to go for a Nite joggg! :) so long nv go jog out there le. YES! i miss the breezy windy Weather! heh hehee....

tell ur a sercet! its 5.53pm! after i finish my blogging... i pack my stuff and its time for me to ZROOOMMMM out of this place. =D

(ppl! feel happy for me!?? i'm knocking off soon!) HAHAHAS....


Monday's :))


Tuesday's :)

(not that nice eh hahas)

sian.. see this black square thingy see until i'm so sick of it.... but i like IBM lappy. so cool!

hardworking?? i think so. =P

serious enough?? i think so eh. HAHAS

my POWERFUL DRINKS OF THE DAY!

EEEE.... USUALLY I DNT DRINK COFFEE. BT I HAVE TO... :(

TASTE A LITTLE BIT..... EHHH LIKE NOT BAD WOR! :))

hahahahs... I'M drinking it ardy! and even finished the whole cup! =P

TEH C!!! u rocks! will be my best working partner. hahas

Labels: wat a "drinking" day. hahas

Sunday...
a cool outing.
so random yet loving it.
hahas... went to get father day cake.

from Orchard we search all the way to Novena and finally TPY. ZZz got polar cake for dad. hahas
ehh i'm somehow used to going typ on my weekends.

i love the bubble tea there! KOI cafe. hahahahas... must try if u nv drink b4. coz i think their milk tea is the best. ehhh.. maybe some of u do have better recommendation. hahas do LET ME KNOW! i will like to try!!! okok?!

however, i had a green tea from EACH a CuP. hahas so din get another bubble tea from KOI. sadd.. nvm EAch a Cup do have their nice drinks too. :)) bubble tea rocks.! hee

so loiter around tpy. sat down at my usual corner and slack. wanted to buy dinner. bt decided to not buy and wait till i go home n cook Maggi... aiyo magggggi seems to be my daily staple food HAHAS. looking for nice favour so i will not get sick of it. =D


stupid faces... dntnoe why wanna so close up. lucky my face no pimples HAHAHS or else i wont post up any pics. so its lucky to have such a nice complexion. heh heh heh.....

noe what?? Again! fall aslp while chatting with me. haha so cute de lo, always ans me with" hmmm...hmmmmm" b4 dozing off. and after u finished ur last word....usually is "hmmm" and i will hear your breathing.... sleeping so soundly... like a little baby tired out after a long day out there. must be cuddling on your bed now. RIGHT.. piggggg.. hahas

tml its another start of a weekday. haizz... my ipp is back with me. siannnn
i turning in now. if not tml i will doze off in my working office le. bahhhhh.. t-i-r-e-d...

Labels: hugging u.

"Am i having my sch holidays now?? "

*attachment seems to come to an end after wed evening. i got myself so excited over the ladies night at zouk....... reached home nv once leave my phone isolated. even when i bathe i bring it with me -.-
after that night, my "sch holidays" extend to 3 days. (wed, thurs, fri)

i was looking forward to this night.. another clubbing nite which can keep me so carefree and freestyle. Nobody will care if u are a scholar or a worker or even a CEO... Whatever status u've got, everyone on the dance floor will ended up the same. whereby we DANCE our soul out.be it a sexy dance, a shuffle, a hiphop dance... or even just moving of ur legs..... u are part of US! =)) we listen to the same music we high n grind one another as if we are well known partners. hahas sound so bitchy. but well, to me clubbing is a place where i don't see anyone except myself. from 11pm till 4am its my world. unless unexpected situation.

ZOUK......
sounds COOL when i 1st heard of it.
AND MY 1ST time there was great n memorable. however, the next time i went in.... i find it worst than rebel......=.= wth...

recently the music in all the club is CMI!!!!... all the DJ must be from some kuku places.. nv hear what is the real clubbing music issit??!!! wtf... play rock music, even country music??!! lame dao lao sia!!!! -,-!
haiz i guess the next time i go, i will hack care n do whatever i like.
nothing to comment for that nite. just issn't that wonderful as i thought. maybe if i bring in a simply minded me... i will enjoy. bt i actually brought in a complicated mind. which made me think so much and ended up zhi tao ku chi. only to blame myself. "sighh.. is okay", i will say.....

so.... whats the MOST interesting part throughout the whole nite? ahahas.. its snapping pictures and snap snap snapppp.... nv bother to care if we looked ok. bt just keep on snapping and enjoy the craziness. guess what, the location of those pics wasn't taken in any part of ZOUK la. its along the road side outside ZOUK entrance.-.-!

hmmm all the pics are nice, some are very candid shots. whereas some of us gave a damn cheerful smile.=)) ahahas.. say so much.... i never intend to upload anyone of it. ps.

If u still rmb i mention i'm like having holidays???? hahas.. yes indeed i feel that i'm giving myself 3 days holidays.......
wed nite was a CLubbing nite., thursday afternoon had steamboat at my hs, friday although wasn't tat happening. bt i planned something. and somehow i Follow up my plan n go for it. wasn't very successful. but at least i tried. haiz.. dnt noe what is going on in me. feeling so down and empty that whole nite.

Sat>>
early morning giving a damn black face to everyone who speaks to me. i'm like the boss standing inside the stall doing my yong tau fu, nobody dare to speak or even ask me to do things. i feel sorry to show attitude bt i'm really not in a good mood ma. some more i din slp for the whole nite again. sighh...

i'm kind of LACK behind.....
many things haven't do. i haven't call up my sch sup to tell her i'm on MC for thur n fri. ...... today i skip work again. tiredddd..... just called back to tell them i overslept. siann.. continuously din turn up for 4weeks.. wth.. i'm so suckky!!! haizzzz....
right now, i haven't get myself settle down..... got this heavy heart, i still have many things to deal with. argggg...... haiz i hate this feeling. i hate to plan.. i hate to follow step by step. i got no mood to do anything now other den stareeee.. n STILL STARE into the space.

freak.. sometimes i notice if i lie about myself taking MC, i will seriously feel sick or unwell. is like i said i had diarrhoea n need 2 days MC.... n the following day i had a little tummy upset. keep having bloated tummy and wanna go toilet. right now. having a little sore throat. eat anything oso not nice. hopefully i wont really take MC on Monday. pls......... or else i will be in deep shit... haiz

my 3days "sch holidays" turn out to be a little messy. all not according to plan. very last min decision. but somehow still did enjoy my "sch holidays" ...

Labels: 心酸

[(lastnite post)-cum tis morning freaky day--]

feeling not as good as anyone ...

bt still ...
i care.
i want..
i will...
and. i control...


no matter what. i try to keep myself cool.. might be feeling lousy.. bt i will think and make myself feel happier.

arrrr..ggg....


sometimes...... SCREAMING can make me feel happier. SCREAM OUT LOUD.... like realllly screammmmmmmmmmmm................ until i feel that all the pain in me are thrown out. i simply HATE those secrets or problems thats are stuck ed in my mind! FU-ck Tha-t Sh-it...... BAHHHHH... everythinggggggg all the CB-NB-CCB-KNN... watever. just wanna let those words all out!

Leave and done with....
although things might not be solved. i will still feel better as i dnt like to pressure myself with tons and tons of troubles.....haiz

sigh*~ this action is one of my signature word. hahas

whenever i sigh... i feel a little better too. :) thats weird to some of you. but i feel better so pls let me do that if u really notice me sighing.... :P thanks.. =]

ayyyeee....
bored.
empty.
sian.
freaking....
blank..

stupid... dumb.. m-e

i do see differences in ppl who think likewise about us.

they comment differently, they will say No. they will tell u dn't becoz of this r/s sad..blaxx blaxx.... dnt becoz of someone and get hurt. bt i don't understand....... y u guys can feel that way. yet we gals cant. =.=! noT fair la. ZZ what's wrong?! so wat?? i like it and i think its okay!!!! if u don't like u can just not comment. leave me alone......

i dntnoe, n dnt want to comment. but i hate this feeling when ppl don't understand.
one reason why i don't wanna say out my heart feeling at times.
say for nothing. ppl also won't understand. zzzz
------------- freaking F up... i wanna go clubbbbbb......----------- wed! i'm awaiting.~

(*edited last nite..)
by now.........
I'm slping soundly *without my switching off my lappy again* this time round worst.. even nv switch off my light.-.-! fallen a slp on my mum's bed........ lonely pillow hugging with me COLD. *usually i will hug more den 2 pillows :)*

TUESDAY!
well, what i mean by freaking morning~
out of sudden, the weather changed... raining cats and dogs.
jie wake me up to shut the window and check if clothes are under shelter.*mum n dad went oversea we are to take care of everything......* went back to bed again. tiredd

alarm rang... irritating...... ZZZ
switch off all the 3 alarms. =P
ZZZZZZZZ all the way till 7.40am. hp rang. weird no. ???? nv see b4. but i just pick it up.
"Helllo...." i speaked.
"Hello, xiao mei... u are slping arh?" a guy replied.
"HUh..... erm yah. i'm sleeping...... " i said.
ehh... i'm *whoever*, ur fried fishball today nv come eh. i cannot find it. u want to double check for me??" he asked.
"Huhh...... ehhh... fried fishballl... ?? ohhh... ok i dntnoe eh... so early, i dont tink there's anyone one in the factory to check for u." can u just take whatever u see in the box????" i said looking at the time. *GOSH" 7.45am!!!! running late for work!
he insisted to call him back again to confirm about the fishball. -.- okok.. i called back to the factory and no one picks up. called back to the uncle and quickly go n get my clothes n BAthe..
B4 i shower... i made a call. rushing her to wake up hahas.. sorry. u are late tooo! hmmm :p

by the time i'm done with my everything. i was about to leave my house. and jie hold me back to help her take things.... awwww!!! i'm LATE la. dumbb...
toooo rushhed... everything are cock up!..
nv eat damn hungry. leave hs at 8.30am. -.-!
got into the lift. just when i reached story 1. the door STUCKED! alarm rang..... OMG.. what is thisssss..... stupid ! not the right timing! wat a "GReaT" time to let me wait in the 1/5 opened door.
cannot go through. 2 things came to my mind ......... call jie for help, follow by call up My supervisor to tell him i will be late. haizzz... jie cannot hear me due to the alarm plus she is running late for her exam too. Freakkk! holding on to 2 calls, i rushed jie in the conversation. she fed up me. =S hang her call, i answer my supervisor call, telling him i will be late. stucked in the lift. he sound so HUH??? stucked in there now??? this timing. -.-!
yeah....... i noe... i'm late bt thats not i want. haiz..

dumb lift... ring so loud yet no one out there to help. dntnoe what to do bt try to pull open the door. tried a few time and finally the door moved...... phewww... rushed out of the lift. and speed walking to mrt......
really not my day, found out that i left my ezlink card on the table. =.=!!!!
siannnnn...
top up my another ezlink card and train to work.
having this so blank mind and not stable condition. only thing i wish to do is..... stand at one spot and NOT move............................ stand n stare as long as i wannnnnnnn........
wth.. still have to rush to work. and face my sup about what happened.

only lucky thing is that my sup is kind of understanding. when i reached i explained. and he asked me settle down b4 giving me a new task to work on. okay. thx. :)

however, i don't noe how to settle myself down. whole morning so not feeling very right.
hoping after my lunch, i will feel better? hope so.
alrighttt... 5more min to lunch. my tuesday..... i'm looking forward to 6.15pm. i'm seriousssss.... i'm waiting to see 6.15pm!!!!

sighhh... hiazzz.... end off..

Labels: empty - blank - confused

last nite was too tired to blog.....
so only managed to blog up a birthday wish for her! see how tie xin i am hahas!!! =D

alright its my turn to blog my working life!!
currently at work place. waiting for the dumbdumbs to cum hahahs.. wanna have lunch with me bt all come late. i'm still waiting =) hahas is okay i noe u all r waiting for lesson to end too .... so i wait for u all! hahas

well... this morning there's meeting. same thing..... listen n listen. tired but no choice. trying to catch what they are saying...... bt somehow catch no ball. =P
is okay will try to learn more on the following meeting. =D

i feel so retarded. whenever i come to work. i will feel uneasy and insecure due to lack of confidence in myself. i feel so helpless when they ask me to do something and....... i will need them to guide me b4 i can complete the task. its like wasting their time on teaching me when they are so busy and supposedly I'm the one helping them out inorder to reduce their work load. ended up, i 'm adding more work for them. Somehow i feel so useless. sighh sighhh.. heng zhi bei arhhhhhh.... =(
wanting to help but creating more trouble like that. hmmmm....

I'm still not used to the office hours.
after lunch.... i will feel so damn sleepy! wanting to fall asleep. or i will be losing focus on the work I'm supposed to do. right now! after lunch. i type this post with a half conscious state. Today its Friday. hmmmmmmmmm i'm feeling great to come to the end of the week. but feel sian as i have to work on weekends. argggg.....
i can't wait to stay at home and slack for at least 15 hours..... i need some nap, plus i want to stare into the space for a few hours. then switch on the TV to watch some shows.... and lastly, do my own stuff such as pack my table!! hahas so messy la.

super tired arh................ dumbb
toilet can be my second "bed". hahas. opps... always hide there*

you are so special that i would describe you this way.....
when i see you, i smile.
When i hear you, i listen.
When i touched you, i feel you.
When i kiss you, I LOVE YOU!

mei you wei she me... jiu shi zhe me xi huan ni.

Labels: tats when i say i....u :)

i'm so hungry now!!!!

haiz..tired?somehow i feel tired.

EHHHH WAIT!! before i start anything about my past 1 week journal! i would wanna say something to someone!!!

Lee kaisin!! cannnnn seee me?? can hearrrr me!!!!!hahas.. well, today! right now!!! its your 19th birthday!
seee how good we are to call you at 12am sharp! seeee la.. i oso dnt have sia. somemore we are the 1st one to wish u! =Dyah yahhh... 19 le. big gal le... same age as me le... hahas bt still i take u as xiao mei mei. hahas although you sometimes give me the so fierce look. i still wanna say u do have ur weakness de. =D dnt so strong ok... must be less tense up. dnt always F... F... hahas not nice eh. =P

HOWEVER!! u are someone i will rmb for life. hhahas.. coz if dnt have you, my poly life will be nth bt JUST attending lesson n lec n tutorial. same as what you said. i look forward to coming school becoz of u and beat. if not..... i will wanna overslept.. i will skip lesson. i will not go on time and etc.....
tell you a secret. hahas.. sometimes i really look forward to see you in sch. bt when u n beat at the same time PS me....... wah.. i feel like leaving sch and go home..... or go else where!!! u KNOW! the feeling issn't good at all. sighh.. bt still i will wait.. and hoping u will return me a call or msg...tell me u are on your way... u are reaching sch!!! yeahhhhhh i'm looking forward to the call/sms la!! dumb dumb.. :)so now... we dnt have have the chance to study in the same class... same lec... same exam hall. =( i noe there are lots of misses.. same here :) bt i will keep those memories in my heart! nv will i forget U!!! and of coz Beat! u 2 make a different in my life.

kaisin!!!!! ur 19th birthday must be HAPPY just like your NAME KAI XIN! okok!!! =Di dnt wanna hear from u saying u aren't enjoying.... aren't having fun.... and staying at home n Cry!! no way OKAY! go out n have fun!!! if not i will let u go HIGH to the MAX on wed nite.! i asure u =) its your nite!!! i booked it for u!ehhh... bt one thing i will apologise. sorrrry!i have no time to make u something yet.. would it be ok to postpone it :) psps... i reallly wanna get u something bt too rush. cannot think of a good idea yet. take it as a belated ok ?? >.<

i cannot wait to have FUN on wed nite..... i plan to go till dawn.. thur is a free day for me! i wanna enjoy i wann play i wanna go n HIGH! hahas.. crazy me...... o.O

wahh... long sia.... kaisin this whole this is for u!

so now... i just wanna say 464778 :) cannot bear to leave. doesn't wanna take the last bus... doesn't wanna apart at the bustop. sigh.

i will save the rest to tml? i'm tiredd.... tml dinner at Charcoal... issit still on? with jx n lola..DBS pay came in.. only for 1st week. sighh..

i will see you soooon... nites

Labels: imissu /but afraid to losE u..

falling a sleep!~

what the shit.. have been falling a sleep whereever i go.
currently in work place. eyes half closed. i even lay on the table and took a short nap. wahhhh.... its so hard to keep myself awake if i never sleep enough last night.

what the shit!
now... while typing i also can fall aslp. hahas thats me man. cannot control myself from falling a sleep. i tot i come here to blog can at least keep myself awake for an hour b4 i go lunch. bahhhhh.. piggie me.

what the shit!
i rmb i got a lot of things to do today. however........ i came in to my seat at 9am! *late by 30mins i looked at my sticky paper i wrote last Friday, what are the things i need to do. without much hesitation, i start on task 1. finished in 20mins. next task is a long one. it require my sup's desktop. went over to his seat as he took 1 week off. :) :(
dnntoe how i should feel. feel less pair of eyes keeping a look out on me. :) however, was given task to complete. i'm afraid if i cannot complete it when he is back...... "OH SHIT, more worries by then".

*...* i fall aslp again. -.-!
omg.. i think i can go up to MARS and slp up there!! maybe there are similar people like me who will fall slp anywhere, anytime, any position. hahas. i'm weird.

ohhhOh!
guess what?
kind of being awaken by this gal. :))
hahas my hp rang out of sudden. *thinking who's that calling me at this timing.?
"amanda hs calling~~" O.o
smiling at my handphone :)) upon seeing her name, i will see myself smiling somehow. no matter what is the reason that caused her to make this call, i will still smile :)
i answered the call. "hellooo" her soft and not fully awaken tone melt me again... arhh.... *shyy >.<
i asked "y so early?" i thought i should wake her up in 15mins time. bt she called b4 the timing. hmmm... being curious so i asked why so early. hahas.. dumb dumb Starhub woke her up from her sweet dreams!!! tsk.. angryyy* haas...
so since its still early, i asked her to go back slp. call her later :) "Good Night":))

to be continueeee......

i did say i wanna continue right?? hahas
so wat to say?
hmmmmmmmm..... no idea.. bt well... the whole monday i'm damn tired.... very restless. cannot concentrate.
when i managed to finish my things its ardy 6pm. so happy... coz in 15mins time i can pack n leaveeeeee yeaH!
*forgotten wat to continue.. so anyhow a bit hahas.. psps"
end OFF~

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i feel like a dumbdumb.......

i simply cannot let it go.
just in 3 hours time i cannot resist myself from missing and holding her back. haiz.

i can say that i'm suck ... i cannot determine my mind. i will moved my emotion and feeling as soon as i see her. freakk.

dntnoe le.. how sia? i think just be it? i dnt wanna go and set any rules to myself. hurting not just me alone. =S

had a haircut.
ehhhh very short... jie say i looked ugly... to me is something different. bt more innocent n toot. HAHAS no more long fringe covering my face. haiz so shorttttt!

i need some slp recently too. have been using my com until mid nite.. 4, 5 am. soooo tired n nv slp well. ouchh! body ache..... tired.

tml Monday. sick-co -ing
many things to do in that office again.freakkkkk...
pics to be upload soon. i'm tired now.

ok.. ciao.. its a short n quick one.

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i noticed it again.

The History Repeats....
same month,very close no. of days and only difference its the year.
this scenario happens a few yrs back.

i can still rmb which day which month and which year. Although someone says its not on that yr. bt that date has been in my mind for yrs ardy.. i will never forget it.
Somehow, another new date had been saved into my millions numbers of brain cells. i guess both dates will stay in there for as long as i still live on this Earth.
Memories are always something we won't forget easily. Be it someone or something, No matter if its good, bad, sweet or even scary it will stay in there for life...

well,
being a dumb dumb for yrs.....
hahas, I smiled with these little thoughts in my mind, "finally comes to an end." the sudden Happiness yet sorrowful yet relieving feelings. mixed feelings.
I'm trying to adapt to it. have been in the maze for years. although many little things might not be that easy to put down or forget, i will still make the effort to do so.

Forcing it won't work out anything.
i realised that alone itself can imagine a lot of things. what you wish to have or get is within oneself. you can control it to be it this or that way. nobody can stop you to let your imaginary go wild.
However, when this 2ND party comes in, you will have a 'yes' and 'no' thing. more cons will led to unsuccessful outcomes. u might not get the perfect one. Problems will tend to approach you.
Thus, this is where both parties will need to have the bond and work things out. or else it will be like what i have emphasized in the 1st sentence of this para,
"Forcing it won't work out anything." "we need both hands to clap." its the same understanding. So, since its impossible, why not i let go. Maybe we will feel better this way? hopefully i guess.

In the past, i always think I'm weird. i find myself so different from some others. I'm not abnormal but character wise, I'm weird. so since i don't see the impact in changing myself over the years.... which i still think I'm not like the -Normal Earth people- way of thinking. i accept myself as what i am. actually this world is changing. More and more weird people like me is emerging. HAHAS.. out of sudden i feel like laughing. the way i phrase it is so weird. "NORMAL EARTH PEOPLE..." HAHAHAS okok.. that's how i think it should be phrase lah. =x
well, i don't wish to go against myself, so i will let myself be it and go by the feel.
I need to understand myself before i can understand others. that's why i accept myself as what i am now. :))

i wish and hope for you to be the happiest one on earth! Hearts* :)
i still wish we do keep contact like how we do now. becoz.. i have no memories about the past tat we actually chat more than 10sentences in one conversation. hahas..opps psps.. said out something thats so malu. =P

i learned a new thing. "Time Will Tell"
hahas.. we need time to figure out things. yep. its true. rushing is not the right way. :))

New rules~ New life.
let the past remain in our memories. perhaps a sweet memories.
In few years down the road, if we do meet up and happens to talk about our past, i believe we will start to smile at each other and..... Can u imagine?? we will be saying each other silly acts and soo on and so fore.... hahas.. i will look forward to that day. it seems so cool. :D

lets call it a day then.
its 4.30am. wah... hahas another new day to look forward to!

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After work.
met these ppl! FYPJ!
dntnoe y we can still maintain good friendships. although we only noe each other for 3 months... and aparted for 2 weeks, we still can get tgt and chit chat... like we just ended fypj a day ago. hahas.. seldom have such clique.

so last min decided to meet today.
ok and we went J8 to find food.hmmmmmmmmmmm waited for that king rakash. hahas and i choose cafe cartel. =)) like the breaddddd lots.
ate almost one basket of bread. havent start our meal lo. andddddddd.... i'm half full after those bread and butter. hahas

my dish came only after everyone almost finished their food. tooot!
ok.. nice food. n went out with a bloated stomach. chill out at the alley. drink n chat..
i miss them. hope wil lhave another meet up soon!.... maybe 1 month later?? and clubbing still on? hahahs i noe siyuuuuuu will club againnnn! sooo... we shall tag along somedays. =D

black white is my type....got this crave for choco.. ytd..

i miss my smile.. :)

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A random day.... with no plan but with the excitement of going to see her. ehhhhhh sort of??

well.. today working was alright.
i feel that things are getting on hands. task are more and more serious.. more to their department job. everyday i'm being assigned to do something. now i'm given task to complete by some dates. ehh.. need to managed my time well. also need to make sure no mistakes. :)) jiayou TAN WEI HWAN! hahas

this week i had many visitors :D
monday, amanda came to have lunch with me... she came all her way after her piano lesson. and leave for town to accompany her fren again. tiring day for her i guess.... xin ku ni le. :) thanks for rushing dwn and pei me to eat lunch! happpy ^^
She wants to take pic.. so i guess she is up with something. =)) yea i'm right.. this is done by her!.. AmandaOng! thxxxx :))

Today, another love ones came to visit me :)) no other den BEat n KAisin! tadah! although its not a surprise visit bt i really appreciate u all come all the way to spend an hour lunch with me. hahas.. also xin ku ni men le!
thanks tooooooooooo LEE KAISIN! i like those rosess.... nice nice.. teach me how!!! i wanna learn! hao ma? hee..
beat u not feeling well and u still come all the way to see me. so touched! next time i will visit u when u are doing ur IPP. same goes to KAISIN! okok! andddd again i will like to say i booked 17th for ur le! soooo pls dnt put aeroplane! hahas
good luck for ur cuming presentationSSSS.. and also school work and tests ok! jiayouuu!! GO GO GO!!..

soooo 6pm... tot i wil leave early, as all my things are so called done and i'm carrying a end work mood to go out of this tower. just den JJ email me to say "wat time leaving? mayb we leave at 6.30pm??" soo i tot ok lo.. 15mins wait den. and i start to take out my book n draw......... hahas feel like eating choco... jus has the feeeel.
and yup! msging this gal.. she busy sia.. and she did mention she oso wanna eat choco! well.... my mind just have the urged to go and find her. get her some nice n cute choco. surprise?? hahas no idea if she did feel surprise or rather she feels guilty. omg.. i failed to make her happy this time round...... disappointed eh. hahas

reached orchard. 1st thing is head to SHAW hs. get the nice choco!! n den muffins! and up to get nice Peach yogurt bubble tea. hahas i finally noe wat yogurt drinks she is refering to le la! hahahas... funny sia.
soo! i got all the things. and she still nv reply. think she really got big business to handle. X)
reached her counter, no ppl. soooo left the things there and saw her busy at the cashier. walked to take some air. hahas n i predict to recieve a call or msg in 5 mins time. bt weird to say i waited for 15mins.. hmmmm tot her batt low. bt no arh... so i waited. an unknown no, called. 2nd ring den i pick up.
waited a while more to go back in as i feel ps, at her counter doing nth bt jus sit there n stare hahas.. sooo walked ard orchard. was thinking maybe go back at 9pm. so at least not so many customers and 10 she end work.
nevertheless.... things went out of my prediction. i was about to return, den she says something not right. hahas is okay.. Seriously... i nv angry bt just disappointed. coz i tot i will be able to sit there n see her surprise look. bt nv get to see that.
so qiao! the last msg i recieved from her is ..... u angry?.... blaxxxbalxxxx.... OMG~ hp low batttt.. cannot reply... straight away i noe she will be so impaitent if i nv reply her msg. soooo i went in to find her. tell her hp low batt cannot reply and off i go. hoping i will not bum into him. hahas dnt wan her to feel awkward?
carry the things i brought.. which i'm craving for so long... hahas also carrying an empty stomach. which make me feel irritated just wish to reach home ASAP!
heels issit good to walk ard just like tat. coz my toes hurtsssss...

finalllly, reached home! so glad! i tooked off my heels, changed! and head to the table to grab my food. hungry monster.. hahahaas
ate my food without chewing it well. since ytd, i have a feeling that my throat is stucked with some big chunks of things, dntnoe wat is that la.. coz having beathing difficulties. chest a little pain. so i'm thinking y that thing cannot go offfff!

haiz.. tired.. other den sit there n eat my dinner n drink my water... i dnt wanna unpack my bag or charge my hp. leave it there not switch on until.......... i bathe n ready to use my com. which is 11pm. sorry gal.. i not purposely dnt wan to ans ur call. bt i very tired to go n charge. hope i din make u feel guilty again. coz i went down is to see u happy n surprised, not guilty! understanddd :)

so tml is another day at DBS. shld be no plan after tat. home sweet home? i have no mood to go out. just wanna go home n rest. save my $ and energy for upcoming activities? hahas.... wat else???
someone still haven't pay me a visit! i'm waiting for her to call up! she better call me within this 2 weeks or else she gonnnnna treat me another meal HAHAS. guess who? tat little gal who always call me out for dinner! where u? y stop calling me out to have dinnneerrr. TSK! CJX!
everyday is oso long postttt......... hahas

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HALO!

noe wat.... today while listening to the 98.7FM i heard this song...
HALO.. from beyonce. hmmm noe its not a very new song. but somehow. i feel so touched or rather feel the hit in me.

always wanted to ask my dearest beat to send me this song.. bt always forgot. hahahahs... nvm today she very kind. straight away go find n send it to me. THX BEATRICEEE! iloveu! hahas..
haven't been so free to sit down infront of my lappy and type a nice post. recently due to cock up with the IPP in "SBD".. Not very used to it... so i guess somehow i feel very vex and rushy. never get to slp well.. nv have peace in my whole 1st week. tired out like dntnoe wat. everyday reached home is wanna SLP! Until FINALLy its FRIDAY!

A day which i will look forward to it in the following 11weeks! heee.. coz i can actually dress down. and i can BE myself!!!

use to hate weekends.. coz need to work, need to help out at mum stall. very irritated. however, now i feel that family business is still better den working out there in that dreadful office hours. can die! really.. i hate the working hours! damn long n life is like shit in there. boredddd n working freakkkk...

hmmmm...
i miss beat n kaisin somehow.. so actually add them into a conversation. hahas..
guess wat!?

they gone crazy... gone so damn hyper! like not the one i noe in the past eh!
coz usually i will be the one keep typing... keep laughing.. keep disturbing... hahas now they ARE the one! siao liao... in sch nv see me, all becoz mad gal. HAHAHAHAHAHS...
i think ur really miss me too much. so behave like me and ur will feel better right?! hehhehehe!
soooon okay! we shall meet up to chat n EAT n ......do all the stupid things tgt. HAHAHS i miss those stupid faces we pose. miss those lame things we do in public hahahas...

TML is both of ur practical test. must jiayou!!! kaisin. i noe u always very serious in ur work.. hahas bt sometimes let go a bit. =) u very li hai le.. so dnt force so much if u r tired n JUST go BED ok! HAHAHS... as for beat!!!... u arh... hahahahahs... must be still chatting now.. u only start studying when all of ur frens are slping like a pig. DEN u will start to read n write..... at least u studied.. BUT!!!!! not after everyone go bed! coz u oso ned to slp de la... must noe how to enjoy and oso study ok? heee.... recently got work hard?? hear from ur, school seems to be very stressful. dnt over do it ok!.. hahas tink of me and ur willllllll SMILE:) cheers! and oso LAUGH OUT LOUD! am i right! heeee...

well, tml is another new week for me.
i'm still thinking if i shld go club on wed nite heee... can i tak MC? i ardy intend to take MC when i really wanna go out n play HARD one day. be it a wed, thur or fri. hahas when shld i take my MC???? BEAT n KAISIN!! i ardy save one MC for ur le!!! so do let me noe when ok heee... another MC is for Clubbing day.. sooooooooo anyone going do let me noe earlier too ok! =D hahas.. i plan my MC ardy!! cool issn't it. =D like buy MC to skip W.o.r.k. heh heh...

today i'm a guai kid. hahas.. mum n dad not in spore. left me n mei mei.. so before i come home frm tpy... i brought her bubble tea and her favourite TA BAO! hahas.. bt she nv eat le. coz bubble tea fill her stomach till the brim ardy! hahahahs! so funni. as for me...... i drank a small cup of lime greentea. omg.. sourrr.. bt nice. when return back, i brought myself another cup of bubble tea. Green milk tea! =)) i love it. so niceeeeee... best milk tea ever!!! so tats my dinner! hahas coz milk plus pearls make me FULL. plus a Da bao.. i think my stomach got all the great stuff man HAHAHAHAS!!! however..... right now i'm feeling hungry. -.- aiyooo lazy go dig food. nvm... faster done with my things n i will slp with that empty stomach! tml its a new day!!!
goshh... can die.. going to rush into MRT... n run to DBS tower 1... and sit there and rottt.. nono.. is sit there and start recieving WORK load from the ppl there..... sigh...

ok.. i think my post is so damn long again. with all the "hahaha, LOL, ......, !!!!., =))," and many not proper english kind of words are just occupying more of my post's space. hahas
i will end here. maybe soon will update again! ciaoo

Edited...
Pics to be uploaded... hahas.. more actually bt some i got it from this dumb gal. =P hee.. aiyoo anyhow snap shot. caught me n lorrian grinding HAHAHHS...

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