finally I'm done with my project!.. xin an le xu dou... phew~

what a BTCS..
got me 2 sleepless night.
1 whole week of peace-less sleep.
3 weeks of rushing..
1 month of afraid...

3 months of hatred......

well.. is all coming to an end...
issit what we are looking for?? hahas maybe. let this be an unforgetable experience ba :))

oh.... i got to goooo~

market... here i come...
naggy mummm...... i know le~~

how i spent my 20th birthday :)

Labels: hahahas

why so many unahappy soul recently...

it hurts.. pain in there. :( why cant time turn back to 09.... i miss my life. i miss myself.. i miss my freedom. i miss my happiness.. i miss my everything..

i miss ta...

why .. why can things change just like that.. without a word.. the uncertain of whats happening.. what i should do...? avoid doesn't seems to solve the problem. avoid for years and its still there... ouchh... it hurts me every now and then i'm in pain..
i don't hate.. but i want to know. am i to be blame... am i the one causing it all... am i doing a one man show? wo hai shi xiang bu tong...

duo xi wang wo cong lai bu zhi dao she me shi ai qing.. zhi xi wang wo yao chi he wan le...

Labels: fan

2nd day.... not able to slp..

sigh... i'm tired.. bt my mind tell me i cannot slp!

i scared.........
i cant put those stuff aside just like that... i want to make sure its all working and can be submitted on time n perfectly working well!. sigh..

feel like thats missing things....
wan to faster settle it and count down what i still left undone. well.. too many i think.

today is a mixed feeling of sad n happiness..

i dntnoe why.. whole day~ my mood was super bad and frustrated. damn~~~~~ just feel if i can soak in ice water... also feel like punching.... feel like slapping myself.. feel like starring into the space...



sorry... i'm supposed to post up wat i received from a grp of besties.. I'm sorry.. right now.... i dont feel good to write about happy stuff.. i will put it all on that special day. xie xie ni meng..

i had a chat with some kuku... i know it hurts.. i know how u feel.. i also understand why you will have such feelings too. sigh.. i suggest to let urself cry out loud!!!! cry all you want.. i know this can only help for a short while.. bt its better den keeping it in your heart? feel so pain.... i feel pain too... ouchh*

dnt blog.. nvm... don't write oso nvm... rmb.. u got a mouth! =)) shout it out... cannot bang the wall ok. not only your head will pain.. the wall will feel pain too . :) sorry.. i don't know what i can do for you.. if can i don't mind tell u lame joke everyday. :)) ahaha u will sick of me oso. bt i don't mind try (: jiayou~ ke fu jiu hui hao yi xe... wo xi wang shi zhe yang... =

sigh. 我也很痛苦。伤心。。。why.. xiang qi jiu xiang liu lei.. :..((

Labels: hai shi hen nan wang ji.... =(

一天没睡觉了。。。

精神好像不太好。 haiz！。。
。。。。。。
我很俄啊！

等一下还要做report... 和 project. sian 一半！！

很累啦！！！！！！！！！！！！“~他麻特！~” ~ sighhh...

不知不觉。。。 我开朗了一些。（：
我很辛庆我有一群了解我的朋友。

就一直会在那支持我（：

still love to have heart to heart talk at times... i feel less burden and less stressful. :) thx Ms Tay hahas... was super tense with all the things coming up to me recently. yet with your much much elaboration and sharing.. i feel much better now. i know its not easy to overcome it in such short period of time.. still will keep trying. (:
thanks onces again.

i lovessssss threesome! hahas
so long since we had lunch tgt.. in sch..
love the feeling of the 3 of us coming together and do things together. (:
thanks Kaisin! thanks for coming down to see us! hahas oso help me in my project. ur 25bucks is worth it. =)) hahas

misses the time when we had lessons together.. eat n have fun together. hahas lesser of such great time le.:/ i believe we will still keep in touch even after we grad right!!!?!

ok.. my eyes are closing... very very low batt right now. tml still got more things for me to solve and do! sigh.. jiayou ba TWH! ahhahs..

kaisin~ work hard! tml will be a great day for u!! be happy to go work uh!!! :)
beast~ haha dnt fan! u always have the most chill and patience character! cannot blow up uh! :)

晚安了。。

Labels: 好一会儿。。

phewww~

我的 Monday finally over le~

one down-
4 days more..

something got me to really think hard.
just before i was about to shut down my lappy and head to sch...
devon ask me a question.
"hey, birthday how you celebrate?"

hmmmmm.... nv even think of it. i don't even remember 31st is round the corner. sigh..
i just wish i could get drank and not think of anything?

no plans.. no expectation. just feel like driving out to get myself some fresh air.
i miss east coast park.. i miss sentosa.. i miss the sun as well as i miss the sea. :)
I'm yearning for the the night life.. i'm yearning for those shots and beers... 可以借酒肖厝吗？

mei mei asked if i'm going out? or celebrating at home？
hahas.. good question. never thought of celebrating. just feel like staying home. tired...

after this week i shall get myself to work more~~~ i need to save up. i need to save for my new phone, and my Burberry wallet! have been saying... but never do it. sigh! after new year! i must get it! i'm going to pamper myself! i shall and i will! :)) 为自己而活了。。

need to plan what i should achieve after my freaky exams! many things in mind now. will get them all done!

project~... here i comeeeeee....

Labels: yaoshi

so silly.. i should have stopped myself long ago..

白痴。。time to find back yourself.
haven't been sleeping early recently... its always in the middle of the night that i will have my mind run wild. i guess this is very comment to many of you. being alone will always led to a little pessimistic.
its not what i want. but memories will carried me away at times. i know i will have to be more self-controlled. trying.. hahas
我应该觉悟了

Labels: nottobehave to be.

白色恋人 ~
Sounds like some drama show?
when i first heard my jie says "ehh i just brought a 白色恋人. faster come and try!"

at first i totally ignore her. what the shit is "白色恋人" ?
I'm BUSY~ don't disturb me!!!~ hahahas

this mystery only solved after i went out of my room to had my dinner.
i saw this super cool wrapping paper. its like some present wrapping! din managed to take a photo of it. sorry~

so while having dinner... jie unwrap that "present" and she keep saying" try this白色恋人. from japan, very nice... and its Expensive Hor!~ diaooo.. always like to emphasize on the expensive part. hahahas anyway... I'm wondering what白色恋人 got to do with very nice to eat?

well.. only then i knew its some chocolate coated with soft soft biscuit :) nice nice!

so jie started distributing to all of us.. the funniest part was... jie just mention it's very soft.. must eat gently... and after jie finished her sentence, cute daddy........ dropped the whole白色恋人on the floor~ =.=" hahahahas
jie's reaction damn big la! she straight away.... PAPAAAAA~!!!!! *action* hitting my dad's arm consecutively. HAHAHAHAHHAS... whole family just laugh out loud~ ;D


cool packaging!

choco and milk choco

Labels: 我的白色恋人。

1 more week!

just another 1 more week!!!!

everything will come to an end!

this is so so soooooooo want all of us are waiting for! i rmb tong says"i shall pop champagne on that day!" hahahas... i hope that day shall be our celebration day :)
hope things will turn out to be a success one.

i 've always hate n dread to do my presentation. I'm glad to say! i don't have to memories slides or do research on those stupid assignments ANYMORE!!!! WOAHHH its sooooo damn fcukinggggg COOOL! less 1 burden. FUCKKKKKKKKKKK....
sorrry.. i hope by screaming these **** words i will feel better.

although i still have a final project presentation on 2ND of Feb. nvm lah.. that shall be the FINAL one. done with.....and i will not need to attend any more F**king alien language lessons. phew~

Monday....
another practical test. freakyyy 25% eh! tmd.. this is crazy~! i need to score at least 20% out of 25% pls.. make that practical easy and straight to the point. i need this 25% 老天爷。。拜托！！

Wednesday...
project need to be done. can managed? scared~ will there be another sleepless nights? 天啊！帮帮我。。。。 我需要你的帮忙。可以赐我一道正路吗？要不让我失意也不错。哈哈。我就快要风掉了。
有时想想。。。我真不懂我是个怎样的一个人。不要说我emo。 可是我真不懂我是个怎样的一个人啊。算了吧。就让我疯疯癫癫怎样过吧！哈哈哈 +D

我要离开了！
1
2
3
4
5
6
后会有7 。。吧。

WANANLE 。

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happen to see this, @ beat's blog.

i wonder if couples do think this way?

i like this~
"you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed"
its true and meaningful... don't you think so? :)

but......in another way..
what if... you choose not to leave and it hurts.
will it be better to choose to leave?

out of random.. this question came to my mind. its kind of contradict me now...
will anyone solve this contradiction?

Labels: contradict

time passed so so fast...

just updated a post this morning and right now its midnight!
another new day is about to arrive again... aww...

i'm trying hard now.
i hope all this helps. :)

have been coding seen afternoon. i just cannot believe myself sitting infront of my lappy trying all ways to debug my calculator!! i feel kind of good doing that. it seems tiring.. but it makes me focus and keep my mind away from everything except wanting to get my program run!

i don't know if this is the correct way to not let my mind run wild.. at least right now i got something i want to achieve. just wanna focus on getting my project done on time.
trying my best.

there are more to go..
加油。。

Labels: i'mtryingiguess。。

又是新的一天。

我也变得很没自己的风格了。
就好象在这样过日子。。 一天过一天。。

有时都会忘了今天是几号，时间就一分一秒地流失。sigh
这几天我很累，每个早上都不想起床。

我也没有毅力让自己打起精神做我想做的事。懒人一个。

更不用说是过新年。完全没心情。

Labels: 19-01-10

又是新的一天，新的星期。

当我睡醒时，突然感觉有点害怕。
有太多太多事要做。时间越来越紧凑。

我真不想起床。=（

心情很乱。到底还要趁多久？

做人到底是为什么而活？
真的是为爱而活吗？
我不服仍，但现在的我是在为什么而活？我真的不知道。。。

现在的我一点都不开心。

人都是自私的。

活着到底是为了什么？
但他说。。
全都是为了爱而活。

我很累。

心情很乱。
我到底是个怎样的人？
我是笨蛋吗？我是谁？


到底我要的是什么？
可以告诉我，我到底应该怎么做？？？？？？？？？

我做错了吗？到底是为什么？
一开始我就做错吗？

跟我说我应该怎么做？为什么突然这么不起眼？ 为什么突然这么冷漠？

我很烦啊！我很不自在！！！

难道关心也有错？难道想分担一些，听你诉苦也有错吗？我应该怎么做才好？我是不是太过过分了？

还是我不该再去问候你？不再和你联系？ 不再提到任何有关你的事？ 我是不是应该让自己消失在你面前？

可是我已经习惯在你身旁莫莫地为你加油。看着你，想着你。。。想你是否过得好吗？想你是不是在开心还是闷闷不乐？

有时候。。。 我又想过，在你身旁，我到底是什么? 有没有斗你开心过？有没有认你觉得我能依靠？haiz 我不在意你能不能给我什么，只要你能至少认我听你诉苦。。 做你能聊天的对象。就好像你一个好朋友。难道这样也不行吗？

如果是应为我说我喜欢你而让你害怕。。我就向你保证。。。 我不会让你为难。我就在这对你说：我TWH不要在对你有感情了，可以吗？

当我是你普通的朋友吧。我会有份纯。如果你要我别在这样对你好，那我就不对你好。不在为你而活。这样可以了吗？

但我还记得，你对我说过：“终有一天你会离开我的”。所以现在就是你要我不再对你好？是这样吗？ 要我离开？
如果是这样，只要你说：“是”。我也就会默默地离开。不在去找你，不会一直问候你了。如果可以，我也就会消失在你面前。不会让你为难。你也不用想法子避开我了。

那样你会开心吗？你会变得跟坚强吗？

只要你开心，我也就会无怨恨地离开。祝福你幸福快乐。

just feel like running away..

my mind keep running non-stop.. every minute.. every second...
how i wish i can have a controller to my brain.

if i dislike this period of time... i can just fast forward it.... sigh...

i want to be a great inventor.. a super understanding inventor who can help people like me... create all sort of incredible equipments for us to vent our anger.
get us through all the unhappy, stressful moments.
get all these technologies out to help people like ME! PLEASE...

My 2010. it started off with many uncertainty.
time had just passed like that.
10days passed by.. this is so incredible!

all sort of shitty, miserable, vexed, shagged mood and feelings.
all came in at the beginning of 2010. just what a New Year...

I'm looking for a New Year. seriously... a brand NEW YEAR. what i want to achieve?
i know I'm still figuring. time don't stop for me. that's one thing i hate about living on Earth. baaak!

Very soon.. I'm out there to look for what i really want.
am i right to say that? i got to look for my interest? not to waste time on something i dislike. sigh.. why do we people always wait till we regretted... then we will work harder.
失败是成功之母？but we will be wasting our time and effort when we 失败ah. hmmmmm... ..
做人真累。

2010... I'm 20 le.
i still rmb my dad told me something when i'm 9years old.
”明年你就不再是一个数字了。多出一个号码了！十岁了！长大了。哈哈。。“
so fast... 10years passed...
i'm going to be 20! its"2" now! no longer "1" in front.. omggggg not wanting to say friends around me who are elder than me are old. just.. i wont have a 1 in front of my age le. unless i can live till 100 years old. hahahas this is like 80years later. ("z) krazy!

20... to me is like an adult le.
i always have this thinking when people starts their 20s, they should be out there to earn a living already. :(( one stressful burden we have to carry with us le. 真是的！baahz！！！讨厌。讨厌！！
responsibilities are getting more and more heavy.
i see my parents work so hard everyday.. 我的心很酸。i wish i can faster earn big money everyday... don't want to see them work so hard and tired.. i want to bring them to travel around.. i want them to relax themselves. when can i do that!!!!?

money.....
can u grow more if i count u everyday?
expenses...
can u go lesser if i don't see you?

Labels: 2010 wishlist

我很失望。never ever will i get my best birthday wishes.
all these years.. i'm always looking forward. not now again.

angry with myself. why did i teared for such reply i get from her. why...

心情又是很低柔。我真没用。

Labels: 失败

fucking cheeby.

i'm fcuking at the boiling point now..

having all the Fcuking assignments pilling up. no ending..

shitt date line. fuck presentation. NB CB test wih such HIGH % 30%!.. i'm super gonna not slp for days again i swear.. sigh..

hen nan guo, hen xinku ahhhhhhhh.... 3 more weeks.. how am i going to hold these stress...

i wish my windows are all unlocked. just let me jump down.... all these things will not be there anymore...
life is so miserable.. i hate myself ... i'm serious.. i hate MYSELF.

Labels: i hate what i am now

很烦恼!!!!!!!

ke shi mei tang wo xiang dao zhe ju huo......
"ming yun shi yao ni qu zhen fu de. bu shi qu fu"

wo jiu hui gen zhi ji shou.... bu neng qu fu... yao zhen fu ta!...jiayou jiayou...!!

wo ye xi wang 她 neng ting dao.
zhao hui ni zhi ji ba. bu yao ting liu.. ju xu wang qian zhou.
wo hui wei ni jiayou. bu neng zai ni sheng pang, jiu zai jing sheng shang wei ni jiayou ba.

ming tian hui geng hao.

wo ye xi wang wo de ming tian hui geng hao...

Labels: jiayou ba

still sneezing...

running nose...

cough....

so warm.. feverish..

ouhhh..... sigh..

ate so many kind of medicines le still not recovering.

i need to stay strong to fight for my new term! cannot fall sick!!!! pls..

Labels: still sick. after 2days....

MY CAFE WORLD :))
after months of care and concern...

well, its the longest facebook game i had ever played. i don't know what makes me keep hold on to it. i just feel i shouldn't let this game died like that. its months and i noticed the changes i made.

it started off with 2 tables, chairs, 3stoves and counters...

managed to find a decent photo of Cafe World. HAHAS level 1 beginner. (:
hee cope from one friend of mine.


so.... i rmb i wanted to have a 3 in 1 cafe. so i did a 3 different layout out for my cafe.
hmmm started off with very simple decoration. i still rmb someone comment on this layout. can't rmb who. bt was said that my cafe looked like some CLASSROOM. O.o issit?? hahas maybe because of the arrangement in rows ba. hee.

later on..... i wanted some shapes and words. tadah....
"I <3 U"

trying to make it less messy. as the tables and chairs will be all over the place. managed to find the contrast of the white chairs that blends with the white tiles :D

there goes my 3rd design for my Cafe World. :))

as my level go higher.... i earned more as well. :)
that's when i managed to spend more on the deco, tables,chairs and of coz my wallpapers and tiles ;)

wanna have a zen Cafe. sad to say.... not much choice for the tables and chairs. sigh...
nvm indeed i thought of having a cosy corner and a round robin dining place. :) wasn't rich enough to get my kitchen put up nicely. hahas shall wait...

soon... its Christmas! *(^^)*

Labels: Cafe World

很难过.

有点不开心.

闷闷不乐的..

music make me outta control. ((:
i'm falling in love with it. please take me away....

see you again...
.
.
theres only 1 thing 2 do three words fuor you.
I love you.(I love you)
theres only 1 way 2 say those 3 words
and that's what i'll do.I love you.(I love you)

.
.
.
I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Free Loop--Daniel Powter
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
Over...

Labels: take me away

我要生病le
ouchh..

first day of 2010... feeling so weak.. sigh

can i shut down my brain? just for a few days will do.
questions keep popping in non-stop... yet...
solutions doesn't seems to come in at all.

is there a restart button in there?
maybe that will help?

inventors are just not inventing anything useful at all...
what so good to be here?
what good reasons to let me live on..

nothing to say..

viruses are attacking me now.... pain..

Labels: 2010 is it.

2010... issit a good start?

i'm not happy at all. sigh.

fan si le.............

don't wish to scold vulgarities.. but.....
wt****.....
you know nothing..
get lost..

I JUST WANT PEACE!

Labels: WHAT A START. 2010.