lol!!!



yummy right! n what a big portion man!!

there's a weird feeling in me now.

now what's in my mind is what shld i do... wat shld i do... wat SHOULD I DO!!!!

many question marks in my head. sigh..
trust in people issit not ever lasting. well, it can be happening in me anything of time. so scared. sooooo scared!!! will there always be such incident happening? i don't wish to loose anything around me. bt i guess i will have to face it and overcome it. be it things ard me.... or be it people ard me. i will try to learn to be independent without it. i guess i will have to learn it sooner or later. no more depending on people. sigh...

does anyone of you feel so stupid to be like a follower? or maybe no opinion of your own?? argg... frankly speaking, i do feel that way at times. sooo dumb to be like that. simply no character at all. making decision is not my type. however, as u grow up, u will have to learn to make your own decision... thats the hardest part. wahhhh.. i hate it man.!

i feel so lousy at times too. Especially when i'm being ignored, being left a side or being scolded. i know everyone dislike to be treated that way. so why do we wanna treat people that way?? why not we have the mindset of bringing happiness to everyone? when you reply someone you can speak in a cheerful tone and not one word by one word. thats not very friendly right. ehhh maybe some of you don't think so.. bt i think its quite rude and will hurt that person too. you will not know if that person is sensitive enough to feel hurt right? :) so i always try not to reply one word. i will at least insert some smiley or at least a HAHA... to soften the whole scenario. well thats my opinion. hahas. no offence =)

hmmm... why i say so much or so many random thingy is becoz i feel so uneasy to keep it in my heart. was feeling so lousy and depress just now. HA! at least i throw some of my trouble and worries into my dearest BLOG! =D hmmmmm....
lastly.... be mindful and thoughtful of your way of speaking. :)) thx for your LISTENING EAR.~


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A VERY HAPPY NIU YEAR.
EVERYTHING IS A NEW START.
NO MORE CHILDISH ACT...
BE MATURE AND DO WAT I SHLD DO! =)

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wat-the-helll-
i'm - in - the - unstable - mood - right - now.!!!
though i had done with all my quiz and test..... which lessen my burden, i still feel uneasy with the whole chucks of projects to complete. wah damn sian la!.. sickering...

haven't been feeling so stress up with all my work load.. is like my everything is pushing to a dead line and new year is like next monday..... and i don't even have the time to go and deco my house or even pack my house!!!.... tml till sunday will be a super hectic day for me to help out in mum's stall. wahhhh my life now is full of this and that to finish up! i cannot stop to rest or play until 3 of feb =( its tiring.....

arhh... one more thing to worry about... my $!!! haiz.. i ned jobs!!! i wan to earn more n more!!!!
any lobang ???? haiz... i'm feeling so damn lots of burden on me now... this feeling is so suck! just thinking what will be like in 5 yrs time...... or maybe 2 yrs time.... wah, i hate it man.. outside world will be better?? or it's worst den NOW!. money is needed right now.... in this world.

okay.. just had a chat with dearest jx.. hahas she says she nv see me online one lah... den i thought i everyday also online arh! not meh.... hahahahs.. well, we chat quite a bit... she's doing fine =) and did i mention i dream of her 2 days ago? hahaha.. i thought she came back ardy LOL. wat nonsenses!! hmmm i hope u somehow will managed to find a way to post =) i'm looking forward!!! =D bt if there's no way to be found then is alright. i will understand =) take care jx! will see u in 3 months time.. that's fast right!.. hahahs jiayou~

okay i'm tired... haven't been slping well this 3 days.. this is crazy... i'm totally turning my day to night and my night to day.. this is INSANE!!!!! roar!!!!!!!!!!~ i need to go bed now!... tml 5am... wat the shit... sighhh.. sighhhh

nites~

Labels: battle time.....~~~

hehehe!!

thx to kaisin LEE!!! she blog up all our webcam pics.. and her sis dl one kind of software that crops many nice images.. =))) so out of sudden i also went to crop my pic =P hee....

crops different views of my faces.. o.O and of course the 3 of us =)) can see in the middle lo. hahahas well... i like to edit pics toooo.. its fun & STRESS FREE!! heh heh.... shit me lo.. wasted like 30mins in doing this... shld have went to bed instead... Oppss....

okays time for bed =) cya tml gals =D have a good nite slp. hee.... tata..

Labels: little did i notice..... =) its ardy 4am wahhhh

moodless.

these few days of 2009 issn't my day. new year eve ardy no celebration. i believe this cuming chinese new yr will be the same. =[ sheakkk...
if i dnt have project to do... dnt have quiz to study... dnt need to work, i think life will be DIFFerent.. haiz.. i hate to count down...... eeeeeee

@#$%^&*( ={}
siannn arhh...too busy = frustration, too bored = fed up, too many troubles = depression. HEN FAN ARH>>>>

fannnnn arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hen xiang bu shang xue. =/
hen xiang tiao lo arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... =

Labels: xin shi chong chong.....

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YoULING!!!!!!!! HEEE... MY PET, MOSQUITO!! =) HOUSEFLY HERE WISH U HAVE A FRUITFUL 20TH BIRTHDAY! AND OF COURSE........ FOREVER CUTE N CHEERFUL! =D

Labels: ex-c-use me.....

HAHAHA.... randomly i found these 2 pic in my picture folder.





:) understand what is going on?
hahas yah HAMBURGER!!!!

would you want to eat it in THIS YEAR?? 2009! a year of ox!
lolx well. poor little cow... :(
no matter what there are still people who will wanna eat them... tsk tsk....
perharps there shld be more advertisement on these kinda situation where we humans shld think before eating anything. HAHAS

~ okay. just woke up from a 2 n half hours nap. yawnnnn.... had dinner n now i feel slpy again. dotsss
haven't touched on my sweng revision. B-O-R-I-N-G.......
reluctant to study ehhhh.
suddenly i got the feel to fix puzzles. =.= hahas.. must be thinking i'm sott-er! RIGHT? >.<

oh yah.. just now while having my nap. i had a dream!!!! involved BEATRICE, SIEWWEN(pri schmate), and more bt can't rmb.... guess what i dreamt??
a kidnapping incident. =.= don't noe why out of sudden when i'm with beat n talking to siewwen... den we were asked to get into a car... actually its a cab with like 7 sitter??? hmmm not very clear... bt den this whole incident aren't scary... we were not force to do anything. we got into the car and we waited for quite sometime b4 leaving the place. while waiting, we chit chat.. we talk about handphones =.=!!! hahas so funny lor.... oh yah the car is parked along a road side and don't noe why i somehow knew that i'm being kidnapped. just nice this whole incident happened nearby my house.... not exactly the same road path bt do have similar buildings and coffee shop. HAHAHAs and i saw my dad frm far. no idea why he is washing one comfort cab. haiz.. totally no link.. hahas

well, den i tot of finding excuses to get to my dad and tell him that we are being kidnapped. so the lamest excuse i gave to the COOL and tall man.
"i need to go to the toilet, very urgent.... pls.. before we leave" something like tat.. HAHAHAAAass at 1st he don't allow becoz he said" just now someone said that there's no toilet in that coffeeshop". but i insist that there's toilet.... HAHAHAs >.<
so the stupid guy also agree to let me off to the coffee shop to pee...
well... quite dumb lar. bt i'm so glad....thanks god... he let me off to the coffee shop. and i make it quick so that they won't noe that i went to look for dad. quickly i told dad that we are being kidnapped.... and we are leaving to some where else... i took down the cab number. if i'm not wrong was 1413.. or 1412 or 1411.. aiyoo.. not clear.. soo after telling him the details, i told him to make police report asap.. and i rush back to the cab.... feeling so nervous.. hahahahas in total i think there's 7 of us being kidnapped.
and one of the kidnapper is a lady. beat n i were playing with our hp. and beat suddenly figure out a new way to keep us in contact with my dad. HAHAs wat nonsense la.. we can still contact my dad when we are being kidnapped! lollllx
ok back to wat was going on.... then this lady was looking at us... she keep turning her head and look at us. we act as if we are playing games..... listening to music.. so on.. the nxt moment i looked out of the window, guess what i saw???

LOLX i saw cows HAHAHAHAHASsss i saw a group of cows on a very green patch of grass. we seems like we are at newZealand. hahhahahas.. godness.. its so beautiful la. and we seems like swe are going for tour more than we are being kidnapped. becoz those ppl who are so called kidnappers are very good looking and tall and handsome. LOLX they wear black they wear sunglasses.. like some bodyguards. okay that all i can rmb.. after i saw a patch of green grass and lots of cows... i was being awake by my sis bah... haiz... don't noe wat kind of kidnapping dream i had.
dreamssssss are always located at places that are similar to some places you went before bt also mix in with another place that u never see b4. confusing...... hahahas..

yawnn.. i'm tired now..how sia.. ned to study sweng. can dnt? hmmmmm

Labels: cows ~ moooooo

omg.. i think today i'm abit out of mind...
now is like 1.42am.....

i dntnoe why i'm not tired....
i 'm not able to concentrate ...
i dontnoe wat am i doing now tooo....

after reading chap 8 of OS...
i got no mood to do anything..

i tried to play games... bt OMG 1st time i dnt feel like playing tooo...
i tried to listen to music...... SAME thing...
i DNT HAVE any feel to all the songs... as if i'm soooo empty..

wat shld i do??? nth seems to attract me now... godnessss
tml is OS quiz 15% leh... not 5 %
i wan to study bt dnt think i can understand wat i'm reading.. damn shit..

freak... though of having some bits or drinks.... AGAIN i dnt feel hungry. NOW i'm sooooo FULL. no hunger~ not tired~ no mood ~nooooo nth.... JUST FEELING so weird! Zzzz

1st time i felt this way lo.

i even got no feel to blog! and i came here to waste time??? wth...
i even ***** bt i'm feeling worst!
ehhhh i think this post is so funny lah. dots......

anyone tell me wat i shld do?????
i wan to study bttttttt nth goes into my mind right now! right at this moment....
i left 6 hours..... madnesss... i still got 4 more chap to go. haiz...

i tihnk i shld go n tak a bath now.....
wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAN WEI HWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: so weird~ oh man crazy

ok i'm here to JUST post. hahas
good luck to all of u for tml's DMID test and Tue's OS test.

GOOOOOOD LUCCCCCCCCK! =)

Labels: good lucker

hey yoo.
i miss my life...
hahas..
pictures to be uploaded....
sch reopen so its time to take lots of shots!!
monday was a long day... sun was shinning like mad...
burning HOT!
school ended at 8pm! crazyyy.. missed some part of my little nyonya.. sighh. .was quite fed up!
cab home to accompany my sis to get all the stuff. managed to catch 1 hr of little nyonya. hee
nowadays i'm easily tired.. when i sit infront of my laptop, i feel drowse. kinda out of control.. hate it.. cause me to not concentrate on my projects or sch work. tsktskk....

anyway, today school started at 6.40pm. woke up and when jogging again. the weather is freaking HOT la!
the sun was soring hot la. somehow i got sun tan again. hmmm... turning dark brown again...
went orchard to shop with kaisin & beat. hadn't went out in 3 for sooo long. feeling great =)
hahas.. new yr clothing still not yet buy. no idea where i'm going for this coming new yr. hahas boreddd... n no atmosphere at all. =/
ate tako ball, ate ba kwa, drank apple-orange juice, drank bubble tea, ate beef hor fan, did kinda filled up our stomach b4 heading to sch for DmiD. just becoz we need to show cher our test scenario. haha well we were the 1st to hand in bt still left at 8.30pm =.=!

nxt few days no lesson. kinda bored??? bt also good la. not gonna tired myself off. hopefully i can code all my retrieve by thur. x.x and soon will noe how to create and update and finally Delete!. hahas time is tide now. nxt week there are test, quiz, sooon in 3 weeks is time for submission of our projects. freaking ~~~~~ i HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!. hahas rhythm??
haiz. dntnoe la... fan arhh.. no mood lo. =S

sometimes i feel like HACK CARE! wat so BIG DEAL!!! bt after all its my everything.. i ned to handle it well. u see. =( haiz... i can only SIGH... n Sighh........... ~.~

pics can make me smile =) enjoy~