what is right and what is wrong?

now I'm confused..

my mind is not working.. don't feel like caring.. but i know this is very selfish and irresponsible.

sorry.. i don't know what to do to help.. (shilin)
sorry.. i don't know i will make u feel uncomfortable.. (beat)


i mean.. all this happened.. which i don't know issit becoz of me.. i tot i was just being a friend to be a good listener. i tot everything was just that simple.. i admit.. i was too harsh that day.. i seriously don't mean it.. i was too fed up with my sch stuff, my own problem.. and at the same time.. i tot i was supposed to be there to cool down the confusion between both...


i'm sorry ... i forgot exactly what i had sent u that night.. i rmb i was pissed n saying it in a very harsh tone. sorry... actually i don't know what i was saying too. my mind had too many things. being worry for my project... at the same time I'm upset with someone... haiz.. it my bday.. yet.... :( sighh..
but i tot maybe i can help both of you by letting u two meet up.. and talk... sorry...i just simply wish u all will come tgt n talk.. i'm supposed to go home after i let ur meet up.. but i see both of you not talking.. i feel is my fault to pull ur out.. sorry.. shld have let ur decide wat ur want. sigh..

being so not stable to handle my own stuff.. and not knowing what u 2 want.. i made a very rush act. and said things that hurts. I'm so messed up until i didn't think about how you feel. i'm really sorry... haiz.. i kind of regret what i had said to u. though i wanted to just keep u reminded that there shouldn't be a third party when things aren't settle down. that's what i just wanna tell u... i hope you understand.. i clearly know you wasn't having that intention.. but just a reminder that history wont repeat.. coz it hurts and ppl will just think that you are bastard. u understand where I'm coming from? i don't want to stop you from making new frens.. i know its nice to make new fren. bt just happen... it came in the wrong timing again.. sigh...

i mention i side sl.. coz i somehow not knowing what you are doing. i am at wrong as i never ask you properly before saying its your fault. but i just feel that we got to face it and settle everything before we move on. don't cold war le.. den let it go just like that.. like very irresponsible. u understand what i mean?

i can be wrong .. coz i'm not you.. i might not understand how you feel. though i always hear u out.. bt you know yourself better... you can feel extremely pain n hurt... but i can only hear ur pain.. i don't feel it.. u understand what i mean? i'm sorry... i wish no matter what.. we are still that best bud? i feel bad.. i feel sad.. as well as i feel xinku.. when i see you not talking to me like the usual you. i even have such thinking... "should i not talk to shilin.." to let you feel better? but thats not the right way... coz sl just simply want someone to talk to.. and.. i feel pity for her when she have to be alone in sch.. and not having anyone to talk to about her matter... you know that too right?...
however... if you really have this fear.. not having the fullest trust on me.. then.. maybe the both of us shall keep a distance.. i will also not meet sl to ensure you we are just frens... beat.. i don't wish this is what you want too. but... if you aren't sure of urself.. den i will not interfere both of you. let you be alone for awhile den. sorry beat..



as for sl.. i'm sorry too.

i can only be a listening ear.. i'm not good at speaking.. i cannot really speak properly about how i feel when i want to explain something... i will say it till i even contradict myself. haiz..sorry.. i simply hope you can keep calm and stop tearing.. i know u are lost and oso don't know what to do.. but right now... maybe awaiting shall be the best solution... don't be too rush to do anything ok.. sometimes it might just make it worst. i hope whats going to happen is what u wish for. =) jiayou.. and pls!... do eat.. i know u feel like vomiting when u smell food. but if u don't start eating a little... it will get worst! try to eat porridge or soupy stuff..

be strong.. stay cool.. just like how u always tell me to stay happy...... ok!
i know beat still have you dearly in her heart.. not to mention.. this is the 1st time i see her giving her everything into such relationship.. really... i envy your... i hope your will come out with the best solution. i don't wish to interfere le..

"feeling pain in my heart..." I'm sorry to both... i hope we are still friends after all...

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