Monday, February 08, 2010
afraid.. confused.. and Why????
i don't know what is with me...
or issit god's plan?
always at the end of one education.. for example, ending of primary school, ending of secondary... and even now. ending of poly.. i will lose something. don't want to elaborate more on what it is.. but i kind of seeing the routine repeating again n again... :(
getting more and more prepared each time it happens.. be it after Uni.. be it 5 years or 10 years down the road... I'm prepared.
why?? why must i lose ....... . its so hurtful.. things will tend to change after losing ..... .
its no longer the same.. everything will become memories.. everything will be kept as a past.. i really hope this time round it isn't gonna be the same like all my past. =(
I'm so vex.. what is next? what is going to happen? what should i do? i really don't know.. instead... i just know i have to keep myself busy... until the day I'm tired out... until i fall ill... until i found my goal in my life....
i really got to thanks this period of Chinese New Year... it just keep me busy from day till night...
i kind of enjoy this weekend.. without a com.. without fb-ing.. without starring into the space.. I'm busy... I'm preoccupied.... so great~
busy is the only way to keep my mind numb..
Labels: routine
My mind's unweaving/ 2:07 AM
