my luck isn't very good recently...

have been obstructed with many many obstacles. :(

seen the day i got myself a new environment and a new lifestyle, i find myself facing lots of obstacles.

I'm not as lucky nor as cheerful as i were before. I'm not the me i thought i were...
i believe in my 6Th sense.
sometimes i can sense something bad will happen before i actually get to go through it. however... many a time i just give it a miss and never take note of what i have sensed.
i'm just so careless and dumb... sigh

i don't know what's my personality?
i don't know what is my strength...
i don't know what i'm good at....
i don't know if i'm that cheerful person who many of my frens thought so....
i don't know what i am.... who i am... and how i am....

if only i can have it all listed out.. i won't be so uncertain of myself all the time.

sometimes... i wonder.
am i counted a bad student.... or am i one already...?
i don't understand.
all the while, i thought i'm someone who is afraid of teacher, afraid of being out spoken...
i'm scared of being punished... being call up by teacher. i'm that timid!
but.......
but to many of them, i'm someone who talks a lot.. interact a lot and ppl even think i'm daring enough to do all sort of things... or even says i'm cheerful and out going. Oman...what am i??
sigh.. i'm doubting myself already... am i someone who has split personality?

i agree i'm an emo kid now..... im weirdo.. i think a lot..

have been a trouble maker in sch recently.. sigh.. what am i doing?? i also don't know..
i'm making a mess in my sch life right now.... =(

if only i'm a hack care person... so i won't feel so pain right now..
i might have just skip school.. run away from test n exams... ignore whatever punishment i'm going to face.... ignore every single word said by the Discipline committee. sighhhh...

but i'm not that hack care student.. i mind a lot. i mind my personal record. i don't want to have black list anymore... :(

my luck isn't with me now. pls... come back to me... i need you......

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