i wet my pillow once again. :(

in order to kill my pain... i should start to work harder, work from day till night..work to kill my time, work to kill my nonsensical braincell.. work to make me feel occupied. i think i will do that from now. i hope it helps.. I'm a failure. i admit. never success in getting what i want to achieve. sigh..

if i could choose my life again. i will choose to be a stone. live like a stone is so much better den being a human being.
there's nothing for me to worry, to think, to stress.. to even cry over. coz being a stone is just A STONE. agree?

i don't know why. i'm emotional. i hate myself to think so much. it make me feel like giving myself a big tight slap.

today i had a long day in school plus i din get enough sleep the day before. i was trying to keep myself attentive during lessons. i managed to pay attention throughout my lectures, tutorials and even group project discussion. i knew i will have to bear my tiredness till end of the day as I'm heading to working straight after my lessons. i left school and took a train down to raffles mrt.

i simply wanna take a good rest before i start work. yet my mind just don't give me the chance to stop all the thinking. I'm dread... my mind is crazy. i don't noe whats wrong with me. No.... i should say.. i know what's bothering me. but i don't know how to handle it. :(
din get any slp throughout that long journey. :( alighted at raffles. hungry.....
walked to sushi tei. trying to keep my mood to the max. however, its not going to last any longer. i feel empty and bothered. I'm sorry to those ppl i show attitude at. I'm like a dead person, brain clotted. sorry.

its still an on running Marathon. when will it come to an end??

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