so hard to be strong..

i thought I'm tough enough.. but i think I'm weak.

its not easy to keep oneself on going and not have a break.

breakdown for some reasons.

its the toughest to hold back those tears when you are alone facing those problems. the feeling is worst than being punched kicked or even slapped. only wish i can looked at the bright side and solved it asap. i know i can do it. and i will. there is nothing impossible!

school started for a week. its not as easy as we were in year 2. things are much more tougher, our IT0707 no longer have lessons together. we are all spilt into different tracks. time spent together can say its rare.

a very big thank you to them..
these names should be mention. they are....

Kaisin- u know how many Thank You i would like to tell you.. Kaisin......THANK YOUUUUU................ really.. there are more than one thankyou but as many as the seconds you had spent with me recently.

I'm really grateful for your accompany and your presence when i'm lonely.. if you rmb you sent me a sms. saying.. "silly girl, lols. nvr gonna let you cry alone alright. threesome rmb hehee :)" it makes me feel warm up again. really thanks so much. 谢谢你!

thanks for the 2 kinder joy! =D

Beatrice & shilin- i know both of you are quite far away from me though. but i can feel the care and concern your are giving me. i felt it. beat you really know me well. thx for the msg you tag on my tag board. thx for ansing my call that day and thx for asking kaisin to keep me accompany. thx for everything you have done... :)


Liting: I'm so fortunate to have you in sch. really.....
you tried your best to make sure we are in a group. you also ensure we will attend lecture together or go for breaks if we do have the same break time. :) its so nice of you. Thank you so much.

Jiat Xing: hahas you are always the best audience, the best listening ear. you will listen to me no matter how many times i repeat my anger, my sorrow and even my happiness. HAHAS thank you! i love to go out with you becoz we will definitely enjoy our day out there even if we just meet up for a very short period of time. you tends to have the ability to chase off all my troubles and problems... hahahas


JiaJun: lolx y him?? well.. becoz he noes I'm in a bad mood.. and he knows I'm bored and have no where to go... just a short SMS from him..."hey where you? what time is your break?" can makes me to feel that how much he care for a fren :) thank jiajun! i think we are the best slacker buddy in NYP HAHAS

Rhowena: she must be surprised to see her name here.. WHY? coz she will think she din do anything at all.... but wait... she did did something that will always remind me to be stronger. :) at times she will mention some meaningful phrases that hit me straight in my mind. i will always rmb how she console a sad n sorrow sole. her msg will always let me smile and feel better. ;)

lastly..
Amanda: well...u did cheer me up by letting me to see you to work and after work. i don't need you to say anything or do anything.. but just your accompany will makes me feel alive again. that's how powerful and special u are..=)
sorry tat day i'm in bad mood and i throw my anger at you. I'm at fault i apologize for that.. 对不起
不要不开心。。你一定能score well for你的overall. ;) 加油!

sigh.. i'm tired...
一个人的时候，真想要一个温软的拥抱。