[(lastnite post)-cum tis morning freaky day--]

feeling not as good as anyone ...

bt still ...
i care.
i want..
i will...
and. i control...


no matter what. i try to keep myself cool.. might be feeling lousy.. bt i will think and make myself feel happier.

arrrr..ggg....


sometimes...... SCREAMING can make me feel happier. SCREAM OUT LOUD.... like realllly screammmmmmmmmmmm................ until i feel that all the pain in me are thrown out. i simply HATE those secrets or problems thats are stuck ed in my mind! FU-ck Tha-t Sh-it...... BAHHHHH... everythinggggggg all the CB-NB-CCB-KNN... watever. just wanna let those words all out!

Leave and done with....
although things might not be solved. i will still feel better as i dnt like to pressure myself with tons and tons of troubles.....haiz

sigh*~ this action is one of my signature word. hahas

whenever i sigh... i feel a little better too. :) thats weird to some of you. but i feel better so pls let me do that if u really notice me sighing.... :P thanks.. =]

ayyyeee....
bored.
empty.
sian.
freaking....
blank..

stupid... dumb.. m-e

i do see differences in ppl who think likewise about us.

they comment differently, they will say No. they will tell u dn't becoz of this r/s sad..blaxx blaxx.... dnt becoz of someone and get hurt. bt i don't understand....... y u guys can feel that way. yet we gals cant. =.=! noT fair la. ZZ what's wrong?! so wat?? i like it and i think its okay!!!! if u don't like u can just not comment. leave me alone......

i dntnoe, n dnt want to comment. but i hate this feeling when ppl don't understand.
one reason why i don't wanna say out my heart feeling at times.
say for nothing. ppl also won't understand. zzzz
------------- freaking F up... i wanna go clubbbbbb......----------- wed! i'm awaiting.~

(*edited last nite..)
by now.........
I'm slping soundly *without my switching off my lappy again* this time round worst.. even nv switch off my light.-.-! fallen a slp on my mum's bed........ lonely pillow hugging with me COLD. *usually i will hug more den 2 pillows :)*

TUESDAY!
well, what i mean by freaking morning~
out of sudden, the weather changed... raining cats and dogs.
jie wake me up to shut the window and check if clothes are under shelter.*mum n dad went oversea we are to take care of everything......* went back to bed again. tiredd

alarm rang... irritating...... ZZZ
switch off all the 3 alarms. =P
ZZZZZZZZ all the way till 7.40am. hp rang. weird no. ???? nv see b4. but i just pick it up.
"Helllo...." i speaked.
"Hello, xiao mei... u are slping arh?" a guy replied.
"HUh..... erm yah. i'm sleeping...... " i said.
ehh... i'm *whoever*, ur fried fishball today nv come eh. i cannot find it. u want to double check for me??" he asked.
"Huhh...... ehhh... fried fishballl... ?? ohhh... ok i dntnoe eh... so early, i dont tink there's anyone one in the factory to check for u." can u just take whatever u see in the box????" i said looking at the time. *GOSH" 7.45am!!!! running late for work!
he insisted to call him back again to confirm about the fishball. -.- okok.. i called back to the factory and no one picks up. called back to the uncle and quickly go n get my clothes n BAthe..
B4 i shower... i made a call. rushing her to wake up hahas.. sorry. u are late tooo! hmmm :p

by the time i'm done with my everything. i was about to leave my house. and jie hold me back to help her take things.... awwww!!! i'm LATE la. dumbb...
toooo rushhed... everything are cock up!..
nv eat damn hungry. leave hs at 8.30am. -.-!
got into the lift. just when i reached story 1. the door STUCKED! alarm rang..... OMG.. what is thisssss..... stupid ! not the right timing! wat a "GReaT" time to let me wait in the 1/5 opened door.
cannot go through. 2 things came to my mind ......... call jie for help, follow by call up My supervisor to tell him i will be late. haizzz... jie cannot hear me due to the alarm plus she is running late for her exam too. Freakkk! holding on to 2 calls, i rushed jie in the conversation. she fed up me. =S hang her call, i answer my supervisor call, telling him i will be late. stucked in the lift. he sound so HUH??? stucked in there now??? this timing. -.-!
yeah....... i noe... i'm late bt thats not i want. haiz..

dumb lift... ring so loud yet no one out there to help. dntnoe what to do bt try to pull open the door. tried a few time and finally the door moved...... phewww... rushed out of the lift. and speed walking to mrt......
really not my day, found out that i left my ezlink card on the table. =.=!!!!
siannnnn...
top up my another ezlink card and train to work.
having this so blank mind and not stable condition. only thing i wish to do is..... stand at one spot and NOT move............................ stand n stare as long as i wannnnnnnn........
wth.. still have to rush to work. and face my sup about what happened.

only lucky thing is that my sup is kind of understanding. when i reached i explained. and he asked me settle down b4 giving me a new task to work on. okay. thx. :)

however, i don't noe how to settle myself down. whole morning so not feeling very right.
hoping after my lunch, i will feel better? hope so.
alrighttt... 5more min to lunch. my tuesday..... i'm looking forward to 6.15pm. i'm seriousssss.... i'm waiting to see 6.15pm!!!!

sighhh... hiazzz.... end off..

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