i noticed it again.

The History Repeats....
same month,very close no. of days and only difference its the year.
this scenario happens a few yrs back.

i can still rmb which day which month and which year. Although someone says its not on that yr. bt that date has been in my mind for yrs ardy.. i will never forget it.
Somehow, another new date had been saved into my millions numbers of brain cells. i guess both dates will stay in there for as long as i still live on this Earth.
Memories are always something we won't forget easily. Be it someone or something, No matter if its good, bad, sweet or even scary it will stay in there for life...

well,
being a dumb dumb for yrs.....
hahas, I smiled with these little thoughts in my mind, "finally comes to an end." the sudden Happiness yet sorrowful yet relieving feelings. mixed feelings.
I'm trying to adapt to it. have been in the maze for years. although many little things might not be that easy to put down or forget, i will still make the effort to do so.

Forcing it won't work out anything.
i realised that alone itself can imagine a lot of things. what you wish to have or get is within oneself. you can control it to be it this or that way. nobody can stop you to let your imaginary go wild.
However, when this 2ND party comes in, you will have a 'yes' and 'no' thing. more cons will led to unsuccessful outcomes. u might not get the perfect one. Problems will tend to approach you.
Thus, this is where both parties will need to have the bond and work things out. or else it will be like what i have emphasized in the 1st sentence of this para,
"Forcing it won't work out anything." "we need both hands to clap." its the same understanding. So, since its impossible, why not i let go. Maybe we will feel better this way? hopefully i guess.

In the past, i always think I'm weird. i find myself so different from some others. I'm not abnormal but character wise, I'm weird. so since i don't see the impact in changing myself over the years.... which i still think I'm not like the -Normal Earth people- way of thinking. i accept myself as what i am. actually this world is changing. More and more weird people like me is emerging. HAHAS.. out of sudden i feel like laughing. the way i phrase it is so weird. "NORMAL EARTH PEOPLE..." HAHAHAS okok.. that's how i think it should be phrase lah. =x
well, i don't wish to go against myself, so i will let myself be it and go by the feel.
I need to understand myself before i can understand others. that's why i accept myself as what i am now. :))

i wish and hope for you to be the happiest one on earth! Hearts* :)
i still wish we do keep contact like how we do now. becoz.. i have no memories about the past tat we actually chat more than 10sentences in one conversation. hahas..opps psps.. said out something thats so malu. =P

i learned a new thing. "Time Will Tell"
hahas.. we need time to figure out things. yep. its true. rushing is not the right way. :))

New rules~ New life.
let the past remain in our memories. perhaps a sweet memories.
In few years down the road, if we do meet up and happens to talk about our past, i believe we will start to smile at each other and..... Can u imagine?? we will be saying each other silly acts and soo on and so fore.... hahas.. i will look forward to that day. it seems so cool. :D

lets call it a day then.
its 4.30am. wah... hahas another new day to look forward to!

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