RIGHT NOW I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING OUT LOUD.... YOU KNOW WAT IS SCREAMING OUT LOUDDDDDDD..... FUCK TAT SHIT. FUCK EVERYONE OF YOU... I'M SERIOUSLY IN A DUPER BAD EMO FUCKING CHEEBY MOOOOD...
I DON'T NOE HOW TO EXPLAIN. JUST FEELING DAMN DEPRESS RIGHT NOW. I HATE MYSELF.. I HATE MY CONCIOUS.. I DN'T WANNA THINK OF ANYTHING............... BT MY MIND JUST DON'T WANNA LISTEN TO ME. FUCK ASSSSSS.
WHATTTTTTT THEEEEE HELLLLLLL.... KANENABE~~~ i mess up my life now. i really got no aim right now.... i dontnoe what is going on since the day i started my yr 3 track. i find myself like a crazy ass.. totally goes out of mind!
i dontnoe why....... =( i feel miserable.. i feel like dying......
today presentation is a CANNOT make it kind of thing. i feel so lousy. i feel so idiot.. i feel so helpless.. i feel like a liar..... again ... in this ONE day..... i'm again someone who feel so EMO!... 1st... lack of slp.. 2nd.. rushing ppt slides.. 3rd... reached sch with a heavy head.. 4th... feeling so empty.... 5th... no idea whats going on with my ppt slides.. nth goes into my brain... 6th... dragged presentation time, feeling more stress... 7th... called out by loosee.. had a lecture frm her... =((( heart sink to the bottom straight away...=...( 8th... noe i din do well for my fypj.... 9th.. noe i'm a sent back student... bt show no progress in my fypj..=((((( i'm a useless person... its not my luck right now... 10th.. having more stress on my cuming IPP... its DBS.. afraid i will make mistakes again. 11th.. presentation started.. was to present my slides. stumbled, unable to answer the qus. not one bt almost all my slides... got a bad facial expression on both of the t-cher. 12th... feel that all these are like my retribution... i always said something and yet nv give my words... i'm an idiot.... 13th.. i do give myself too much hope. the more you hope the more u get hurt.. its true. sighh 14th.. out of sudden... my mind went blank.. can feel the heat on my face.. tears falling out bt still managed to control and hold back part of it. 15th... my plan for today is kind of spoiled by my mood. ZZ 16th.. my dumbdumb hp faced problem.. need to send for servicing. 16th.. last min.... couldnt find the right person to accompnay me..... suddenly feel lonely again. wth.. i'm confuse........ i'm tired and yet i still wish to complete it asap.. i just dnt have the feeel to make anything now.
