11 of March.....

1 week haven't update my blog.
Wanted to update seen last Friday. but due to some problems I'm facing during the past few days..... I'm kind of not in the mood to talk. Everything was SO COINCIDENCE.. from when i got into IPP.... out of IPP.... got into FYPJ..... till now I have seen so many different kind of people... so many different types of environment. Encounter so many different things. can say i learnt something new again...

past few days haven't had good nite sleep. all the nights I'm rolling on my bed until 4 or 5 am. got this hard feeling in me. things keep running in my mind. I'm physical tired but mentally AWAKE. ZZZ
Last Friday the whole day I'm feeling so uneasy while I'm in that company. my heart pumps faster than usual, i cannot concentrate on my work too. Somehow i got a bad feeling. but have no idea what will happen... until evening when my LO came for the 1st visit. -.- something bad happened? still unsure.. only when i was called to have a conversation with Mr chua n LO then i know there's actually plans in them. I'm just like a ball? hmmm can i say that?
haiz "NOT the RIGHT TIME..." that was what they said. cool lo. i came so not in the right time. so unlucky... so bad luck...
ok. I'm okay with that. i knew something will happen so here it is. i was to be sent back. Accepted. was called up by the school. went to meet them in the Monday morning. was kind of last min.. so i cab to school. had some chat with them and got 2 choices... 1 n 2... not to mention. so yes.. both have risk in it. i got no choice bt to hope and wish for the better one.. That few days had been freeze..... i cannot plan anything. i can only think and pray... lose quite a lot of my eye's juice....-.- emotionally uncontrollable. tats me. so get used to it. hahas
within that day, which is Monday, I'm giving a choice to move on and i got to get myself ready for it. less than 24 hours to prepare.... have to switch my timing too. hmmmm..... unstable ~

until now I'm still trying to overcome it. get used to waking up sooo early... not even able to see the sun when i first open my eyes. =.= reported to one of the t-cher in-charge. was brought to meet my project mates. all unknown faces. is okay. make new frens still.
Am i counted lucky?? still hesitating. group of 4. only know I'm doing software security testing. its kind of new stuff to us. i am lack behind by 1 week. Disadvantaged in the 1st place. bt heard from my grp mates they haven't do much still. other den reading up and some testing practices... they have got no idea what is the main purpose still. hmmm... have to catch up to know wats going on. i think its time to pull my sock upppppp till the TOP hahas. can i? will try tho... now I'm still quite lost. my grp mates are hard working and will do those kind, but only applies when the supervisor is around. yup. BUT i believe all of us can do it by the end of week 12. hahas cheers n jiayou!

oh... my members are all guys. qingHai, marcus, rakesh... and lastly me. hmmmmm....p.s this rakesh is GOOD looking OKAY.. dont play play wor hahas.. i think he got good looks plus he is tall and somehow built. HAHAS i think not bad eh even if he is a non chinese. i like it. heh heh...ohhh..AND he is just sitting right beside me. XD HAAHAA!

can i post this up to the t-cher in charge or who ever can make little changes to this?? currently we have to sign in at 8.30am sharp! its really a HARD one for ppl who need at least an hour to travel u know! sighh... i got to wake up at 6.30am. bahhhhhs... wat is this man. 1st day i signed in late coz din get my acct yet. 2nd day i sighed in late becoz i was 2 hrs LATE! bahhhh... hopefully from tml onwards i can be punctual and on time! okay. or could u pls give us another 30mins graces? 9am???? i think it will be much better =P

from today onward. i make sure i'm going to make it till the end. and i hope i'm blessed throughout. jyjyjy!
i miss the outside world with friends and family... awaiting......

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