when darkness turns to light

Sunday, November 30, 2008

perhaps...
perhaps....
perhaps......

confusion....
what is everlasting?
arhh...

fear is all over me. when will i know whats going on in my life.
hmm.. maybe there's no everlasting. its all about "come and go" kinda thing.
perhaps i'm wrong.

i'm always hoping- wishing & awaiting.
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exploring too deep into it,
tend to "build up"more trust with it.

however, the deeper it is,
the more painful it will "be".

when you realised it,
there is nothing you can do about it.
perhaps some regretting or remorsefulness...

"regretting" will only happen when u had done something.
"forgiving" will only happen when u realised something...
bt what about forgetting???
it will only happen when u done it and realised it???
well, i don't see why people can forget it..
every little things u done before will definitely be somewhere in ur brain.
u don't remember bt u can recall. there's no such thing as forget!

if only i can forget something, i will choose to forget everything i done and start a new fresh one.
i want to start all over again. Starting from the day i born out.

let me be someone else...

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My mind's unweaving/ 12:00 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2008

enjoyy =)

love them muchh.. hahas

jiat xing dnt leaveeeee...... i will be so boredddd....

felicia... dnt sooooo busyyyy.... we need to eat!....

my dearest frens in my secondary sch. we had lots of memoriessss..... guides?? sch?? outing?? hahas lots n lotss....

now recall back, we really grown up alot... in 2 yrs time we are all being aparted more further. hope we all can still be tgt after year later....

4 months... wah tats sooo long.. i can only see my jx in her new blog! hurrray!

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My mind's unweaving/ 11:39 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

pictures for salessss.. hahas
last friday we seem to have photogenic faces =D
out if suddenly the 3 of us started shooting photos........ and is continuously ......... one follow by another. haha in Chinese is call "xing xue lai chao" so random bt we enjoy it. =D
nice pics?? hmmmm as long as there's anyone of us in the pic will be consider NICE =))) HAHAS so bhb.... bt u should know me arh... coz i'm Vivian Tan Wei Hwan. =x
well. something we got to make up our mind by wed. which is so critical and seem to be a "life insurance" thingy. it consist of our future.... HAHAs sound so serious??! yes indeed its something IMPT!
alright... hope everything comes to the best decision.
have been working during my weekends. i guess this is going to continue for the rest of my weekends. =( another 2 weeks?? arhhh.... freakk time is tide!
so fast we are in week 7. and is half way to our yr 2 sem 2. wth.... sch had just started and now we are round the corner to short break and back with our stressful coding and EXAMSss.. bullshit... =S

interesting moments in sch lab =D
HAHAS see how retarded the 3 of us were when taking stupid shots. funny and STILL FUNNY!
3 jokers!

during POA lecture. cutie elmo!

MRT!!!.... finally there's buildings in our pic. cos usually we are settled in toilets or sch labs. soooo seldom see trees or buildings behind us. HAHAs

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Friday's evening met up with jiat xing =))

haven't meet up for sometime bt we never fail to catch up once in a while.

she is leaving to France soooon.. =( and is going to leave us for 4 months!!! cum on!! its not 4 weeks bt MONTHS... siannn. cannot call her out for dinner. or chit chat with me. only way is MSN. hahas

she insisted on that day when she leaves, i'm to be at the airport to send her. HAHAS can.... NP! best fren 4eva!

guess what!

becoz my birthday falls on the jan. and she said she couldn't get back to celebrate with me. soooo..... we went dinner at "din tai feng" and she treated me as my advance birthday meal. haha thx GAL! the food was delicious! nxt time will try the siew mai with rice when you get back to spore! KKIES!

nice food! =)

heyyy... this gal is MY JIAT XING! =) hahas

another fren of mine tag along too. hmm thats lola. find her too exaggerating. after leaving secondary school, she is getting more bold in planning her life. why i said that, coz that day when we met, she is rdy to go for a backpack trip to Malaysia, Thailand, Cambodia with her grp of frens. they are going to DRIVE to these places!! not kiddy okay. was wondering if they plan b4 leaving. hmmmmm going for 1 month! its so insane!!! what she brings along with her is just a backpack bag. and i am sure in there is only 3 set of clothing. sighh... rich ppl are like tat. spend $$ on experience and enjoyments. well, hope she is back safely.

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okay... see this gal ....

she wants to get me her 5 shots. she says its going to be a big present for me. =.=

so lets check it out!

1st giving me a funky face..... to start off..

follow by a 007! bang!!!

starting with her 1st finger shot.

next come her second finger shot. hahas

bleaxx.... her third shot plus a twist on her head!

fourth......

lastly..... her fifth.

tada.... any comments??? hahaha feel free to GIVE comments an this gal's post! lols

naffang will pay you.. HAHAs

me n beat oso have a few shots to present to you!

EEEEEE... smile =)

Moooo muackxx..

ROARRR...

1.2.3

3.2.1

doo ray mee...

mee ray doo

our CHER!

ting dong bell

sin-hwan-sian

happy-sunshine-bomber

lee-tan-lee

notice something...?? kaisin and beat always have a common name. first is their sur-name all"LEE" den you see their last name "Sin"and "Sian" also start with a 'S' wahhh.... wat e..... as for me... hmm middle lo.. always den ma. LOLX

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My mind's unweaving/ 10:08 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2008

ARHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......
i wanna scream out loud!!!!!! as loud as possssssible!!
moody for a moment...
stress for a while...
Rush for the finish line-------------
yes.. i finally done with it. bt i realised something bad. =(
i submitted the wrong file this evening. =( supposedly I'm to hand in the javaBean war file. bt i zip the notepad i sent to rehka. Zzzz guess wat inside? its the codes for "tables.jsp" ONLY.... F.... still thought i can get the extra bonus mark. freakk.. i'm sure if i tell lam tml about it he will think i'm making a nuisance. or apparently he will say "well, its over.... the most u can't get your extra bouns marks ONLY?? yea how simple it can be... if those bouns can help me to pull up my java results WHY NOT!!... who won't mind those bonus MArks?! hmmmm... hopefully he will understand its a mistake. sighh.. bt i bet the chances it very slim........

so what now..
i drank a cup of coffee.... I'm like some owl out there.. eyes are as big as them.
tml lesson 9am?? hmmm if only i can fall aslp now.. or else... i dnt think i can make it on time lors.

picssss....