i dontnoe y when i see u cry, and i can't do anything to help, i can't resist myself to tears too. esp when i caused it to happen. i'm really sorry. i really don't noe other den sorry wat can i say. but i sincerely din do it intentionally. i just doesn't wan u to waste ur time. u can do more work without making sure i can code my codings. i'm sorry to say it in a frustrated way. bt i reali din meant tat way. see u soo angry, i feel so bad, i just dnt wanna lose such a nice fren. "forget it, its over" tis is more hurting... i dnt noe if u r still angry.. just wish u r alright and will still stay as cheerful as before. once again. i'm So SORRY. i shouldn't have say those words....
------------------------------------------------------------------------- i might look strong outside, i might look like a joker... cheerful and so on... bt when it comes to relationship.. i'm serious n would not wan to see any of my frenz being hurt or sad. i will also feel bad n down about it. i feel so useless when i cant help anything. sigh... uselesss... forever.. =(
even my project oso cant do much.. onli noe how to create trouble... onli noe how to play... forever not serious...
feeling so down now. =..( but still ned to.. thanks beat, rhowena, G ....
sch seems to be my second home. now shall pack up and leave sch. mac is sooo dark.. scary =S haiz... back to my CODINGs... feel like committing suicide now. so ____
edited- after i leave sch at 10.30pm, i walked to bishan. suddenly miss my pri sch favo hang out, bishan st 24. so.... no idea wat bring me there, i just walk n walk.... n ended up there. hmm still e same. opened area ground, as usual many people still love to hang ard that area. couldnt find an empty spot to rest, so walk to the bus stop instead. hmmm bus service all stop after 11.45. too bad its ardy 12 am. since i got to cab home n i dont feel like goin home so early, i sat at e bus stop until 1am. correct my sqe diagram and my class diagram. mum called, -"yea... goin home.. on e way..." haiz. cab is everywhere... so i delay another 10mins. alright... done wif my stuff, hands up.. n a cab is in front of me. =)
while cabbing home, i saw an accident. omg. lucky no injuries.. jus saw a van being crushed.. lucky is not at e driver's side. if not i think the driver might be in danger. nite cab is always quick and fast. within 10mins. i reached my hs void deck. and Home*HOme... here i come. feel like redo-ing my UI n coding's. somehow i feel tat my program has hidden bugs.. hmmmm. shall see if i can solve it by tml. if not i shall re-code it again bah.
feeling better after a night walk. =) tml will be a better day.
My mind's unweaving/ 9:09 PM
Hivian
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